Bittersweet Notions Of Forever

51. Drunk Confessions

Bittersweet Notions Of Forever

Chapter 51: Drunk Confessions

The vibe and atmosphere were good. It was cozy, and the lights were dimmed in the place. There were scented candles on the table as well, and it smelled of cherry blossoms.

Soo Ah sat in front of you, and she was telling you about her overseas trip with her boyfriend. You smiled whilst you listened to her story, and about the things she saw and experienced there.

You had missed hanging out with her, and you couldn't wait to brief her about the things that had happened around you, once she was done filling you in about her life. You always gave each other time to speak up.

You rested your chin on your palm, and took a sip of your cold exotic smoothie. You savored the taste of lemons and strawberries, it was a bittersweet taste, and you liked it.

Once Soo Ah was done telling her story, she gazed at you with wide eyes. Her eyes now lit up, possibly even more than before. Clearly, she was excited to hear about your stuff.

"Now, your turn. I'm so curious to know about what's happened between you and Soo Hyuk." She said, and squealed at the latter part.

You breathed in deeply, and wondered about where to start. You took a sip of your fresh smoothie. So, you began to tell her the truth, about how your relationship to Soo Hyuk is, and how physical you are together. Once you were done, she eyed you weirdly.

"What does he say after sex?" She asked straight out.

"Soo Ah." You warned in a quiet tone, feeling embarrassed, and she leaned forward.

"My boyfriend tells me how much he loves me, when we have sex." She confessed in a small whisper.

"I don't know, I haven't myself confessed anything. I feel so.. torn." You said, and your voice seemed to fade away, and you sighed deeply.

"Oh." Soo Ah gasped, and looked at you with a lost expression. She quickly retreated to her seat.

"I want to really give my all to him. But I can't somehow, because.. he is still so closed around me. It hurts me." You admitted.

"Nara, sweetie." Soo Ah said in a soft tone, and you shook your head.

You didn't want to feel sad now. You came out to have a good time with your friend. You played with the plastic straw in your drink, stirring it. Your eyes were on the content inside the glass. It was red, and mixed with ice cubes. It looked tasty, and it was.

"But, when I am with him, I feel so happy, it feels so insane. The way he makes me feel, I feel so different. Words can't describe how he makes me feel. I feel like there's something inside me that comes to life, whenever I see him. I feel like I fall to pieces, but then I get put back to pieces. I feel all sorts of things. It's probably confusing." You sighed deeply and gazed down on your lap.

"I think I know how you feel, and you know it too deep down too. You just have to come to terms with it. Only you know what's good for you, no one else can tell you what is right and wrong." Soo Ah said.

"Despite his closed exterior, I still feel so drawn to him. It scares me, how he makes me forget myself." You said as you looked up, and met her concerned look.

"And yet, I like all of these things about him. Even though I want him to open up to me, and I become warmer. It was his mysteriousness that pulled me in, after all. And he is still so mysterious to me." You confessed.