Not Everything Is What It Seems (Book I)

I'm losing him

“Oh my god! Brian!” I ran to him as he fought hard to breathe. His body was laid down on the floor of the kitchen. “Brian!! Brian, talk to me, please!” I begged as tears blurred my vision and fear took over my brain. I didn’t know what to do, I was terrified and my muscles couldn’t move. I kneeled next to him and shook his body to make him say something but he was just gasping for air, sweating, and his skin was pale. He looked like he was dying and that scared the fuck out of me. I couldn’t lose him, not now, not ever. “Oh god..” I wiped the tears that had already rolled down my face and stood up from the floor, thinking of what to do. I ran to the backyard and stopped at the doorway, looking at all the guys who were happily talking with each other. “Jo-Johnny..” I called, with my voice cracking u,p but he didn’t hear me, so I called louder. “Johnny!!!” He looked at me and his face immediately got serious as he saw the panic in my eyes.

“What happened, Annie?” He asked as he stood up from the grass, walking in my direction. Suddenly everybody’s eyes were on me.

“Br-Brian.. he.. he’s..” I buried my face in my hands, not able to say one more word as I broke down into tears.

“Fuck..” Johnny muttered before disappearing into the house, leaving me outside. Everyone stood up from where they were seated. The girls ran to me with worried faces and the rest of the guys hurried to the inside after Johnny.

“Annie! Annie, look at me.” Eilis grabbed my chin to force me to look at her.

“What happened?” Clodagh asked, confused and concerned.

“Bri-Brian.. I don’t know.. he-he’s .. I don’t know..” Eilis held my shaking body in her arms as I sobbed uncontrollably. I felt Clodagh’s hand fondling my hair and some whispers from the girls but I couldn’t understand what they were saying. My mind was blocked but that’s when I felt a huge need of seeing Brian. I left him alone in the kitchen. What if he needed me? What if he couldn't breathe? What if he died? My heart cringed inside of me and I pushed Eilis away so I could run to the house. My feet were taking me to the kitchen but when I was about to reach it, I felt two strong arms wrap around my upper half, keeping me from running.

“No!!! Let me go!! I need to see him!!” I screamed, fighting hard to release my body from that hold but it was pretty useless.

“Annie, don’t! He needs space right now! Johnny and Zacky are already taking care of him and we called an ambulance.” Matt’s soft and calm voice said.

“But I want to see him!” I struggled in his arms once again but I was too weak. I broke down again, falling on my knees and crying my eyes out.

“Hey, calm down.. he’s going to be fine..” Matt crouched next to me and pulled me into his chest.

“How d-do you kn-know th-that?”

“Johnny is giving him the injection so he’s going to be fine soon.” Matt explained but I was still confused. Meanwhile the girls arrived. Lacey went to the kitchen and the rest of the girls stayed with me and Matt in the living room.

“Why is La-Lacey aloud to go to the ki-kitchen and I have to s-stay here?” I asked angry.

“Because she’s calm and you’re a mess.” Matt simply replied while still hugging me.

“I need to know how he is.. I can’t stay here.” I said after some moments, when I was calmer and the tears had stopped. At this time Matt had sat on the floor so he could be more comfortable with me in his arms.

“Wait a little longer..”

“I don’t want him to die..” I felt tears wanting to come out again. I was so afraid of losing Brian. The images of him being on the floor, having a hard time to breathe and almost dying were filling my head. I instinctively clung onto Matt’s side and he tightened his grip on me.