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xxxii.

the jealousy that i feel

is like alcohol

burning through my thin veins

causing me to make irrational decisions

and to unnecessarily hate

and i don't want to see the both of you together

but i want to see you happy;

for that i have to let go of my jealousy

and just wish you good luck.

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markiepooh: mae

are u skipping

maefosterrrr: think about it

am i in school?

no, i'm not

which means i'm skipping

markiepooh: damn why r u so salty

maefosterrrr: why do you think

i don't want to see him

or her

i'm not mad at them

i just need some time to cool off myself though

ethanol has joined the chat

maefosterrrr: how did you get into this PRIVATE CHAT

ethanol: 

maefosterrrr: fuck off man

ethanol: r00d

ethanol has left the chat

markiepooh: ok, ignoring that,

do we know that they like each other?

no

we don't

maefosterrrr: i mean we don't need to know anything,,, 

it's so clearly evident

markiepooh: i can confidently tell you that he has no idea what he's doing right now

do you remember that time when you got toad to ask him who he liked

and then you left because you didn't get to hear it

but he said

"i'm not really sure because if we're talking about mae and minhee both of them are equally great"

i think what he was doing with minhee at the ramen shop or whatever was just friendly

after all, jasper is a dense rock

so like i don't think he really thought it was flirting or anything

maefosterrrr: ...

this makes me feel so shitty omg

i'm so sorry that i took it out on you that day

markiepooh: no

i've done the same exact thing

sometimes you can't help your jealousy

and you arrive at the worst of conclusions

maefosterrrr: ooh this is news!!

who do you like? jasmyn? em?

oh wait is it monique?

markiepooh: oK it's definitely not monique

and i think jasmyn likes toad so i'm not getting in the way of that

and i think with em it's more like a friendly jealousy kind of thing

she's been hanging with ethan a lot lately and i don't really like it

like she's always with him 

and i never get to spend time with her anymore

maefosterrrr: that sounds like plain old jealous to me dude

but ok

well this was a good talk

i'll come to school tomorrow and i'll apologize to everyone for ruining the lunch thing we had

i wasn't even going to come this week because i wanted to stay home lol

but i guess this is more important

thanks man

markiepooh: yeah

well see you tomorrow i guess

and if you tell anyone about what i said about the girls you're dead

maefosterrrr: jesus ok

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hello everybody!

do you still hate me for breaking mae's heart?

no? good.

i fixed all my chapters too so now y'all can read them without having to follow me! so to silent readers it's good, i guess.

thanks so much for supporting me...

also because people keep telling me to UPDATE they're going to be LOW QUALITY so don't be disappointed if the updates suck tHANKS

also, referring to the poem at the very beginning, it doesn't really seem like my other poems but this is something that i came up with impromptu about jealousy and it fits the theme of the chapter so i left it up there. later on in the chapter, mae changes her stance anyway so it doesn't make a difference.

- daze