A Fangirl's Fantasy

36: One Last Time

Just by staring at him, hurts me so bad. My heart is literally falling into pieces and i can't find any ways to bring it back to what it looks like. I'm in deep pain.. Just by staring at his eyes reminds me of my way out of this world. It reminds me of the diary I've read last last week. Yeah, weeks has passed and we're always going on a date tulad na lang ng sabi 'ko dati sa kaniya.

Today, we went out for a date. It seems to be a very far place because it looks unfamiliar to me. We are both sitting on the ground, covered with a blanket and that's where we're sitting, staring at the river and both eating strawberries that he bought for me.

He hasn't let go of my hand simula no'ng magkita kami sa unit at hanggang dito - hanggang ngayon.

Sinubuan uli niya ako ng strawberry at ganon rin ako sa kaniya. We both chuckled dahil sa kalandiang gumagapang sa aming dalawa. Ugh, it actually feels awkward to me but atleast he's doing his best to make it not awkward.

“I'm so happy I can hear your mind..” he started a topic. “It feels so unreal. As if i'm living in a fantasy world because of these happenings. Like, i still don't get it.. How am I able to do that?”

You are, Yildeen. You are livin' in a fantasy world. We both are in this fantasy world. But only I will leave you soon..

I don't like the topic so I think of a new one, “Yeah.. Kamusta ang fans mo? Mukhang nananahimik na sila at wala ng reporters na nakaabang sa labas ng condo, a?”

“Didn't you watch?”

Bahagyang kumunot ang noo 'ko. Nang mapansin niya, he then frowned at me at binalik ang tingin sa ilog. “I properly bid goodbye to them. And assured them that it was my will to leave the media because of personal matters.. And that's true. It's not just about you, Mel. I needed a break. A long break.”

“Well, then.. i'll support you,” inakbayan 'ko siya at niyakap habang sinusubuan uli niya ako ng strawberry. Habang ngumunguya ay kiniss 'ko siya sa pisngi. “Mas marami ka ng time sa akin. Hehe!”

He kissed me on top of my forehead, “Let's swim?”

Mabilis akong umiling at kumalas nang yakap sa kaniya para matingnan siya ng diretso. “No! Hindi mo ba alam na ang ilog, biglang lalim 'yan? Nakakailang date palang tayo, Yildeen, a.”

He then laughed a bit at mas lalo akong niyakap ng sobra namang higpit, pinalo palo 'ko tuloy siya sa likod, “Pahug ng mahigpit. Hindi pa ako ready'ng pauwiin ka kahit magkapit bahay lang tayo.”

Kinurot 'ko siya sa kili kili kaya nakahinga na rin ako ng maluwag. Jusko, grabe naman nitong yumakap!

“Ang OA mo. Hindi ba dapat ako itong patay na patay sa'yo? Iniba na? Hahaha!” hinawakan niya uli ako sa kamay na naka intertwine at sabay namin iyong tinitigan.

“Charisa.. Melanie.. Ray - uh, no. Charisa Melanie Shin. Uy! Bagay!”

i bumped his shoulded, “Baliw ka.”

“Shin Yildeen.. Jr.?”

Pinagpapalo palo 'ko siya sa lawak ng imahinasyon niya. Jusko! Napaka advance naman magisip! Excited much, Yildeen? Hay nako. Huwag kang ano, ha! Baka isuko 'ko birhen 'ko sa'yo.