All I want | Shawn Mendes

Chapter 11

The party continues and people are starting to get drunk, I've drunk a little but I'm not drunk however Shawn has had a bit more to drink that me and he is starting to seem slightly drunk. I see Shawn and I go over. "Hey" I say and Shawn looks at me. "You okay?" I say laughing slightly. "I'm like really high" he says as he closes his eyes. "So that's what I can smell?" I say laughing a little . Me, Shawn, Grayson, Lily, Tom and Cheryl all sit down on couches as the party dies down a bit and a few other people join us such as Mia, Rebecca and Harry. "I think we should kick it old school and play seven minutes in heaven" Cheryl says as she looks at everyone. I sit back and roll my eyes and Cheryl looks right at me. "I say Shawn and Rebecca should go first" Cheryl says while still making eye contact with me. "What? No I can't" Shawn says. "Sure you can it's only a party, it doesn't mean anything" Cheryl says and I look away and look at Grayson who gives me an uneasy look. "I'm going to go a toilet" I say as I get up.
I eventually find the bathroom and I'm up there for ages, I don't want to go back downstairs it's too painful. I decide to leave, I can't stay here any longer. I come out the bathroom and I stand by the door to the room where everyone is and I can hear them all laughing. I take a deep breath and leave the house completely. I walk home and I don't attempt to linger around to see if Shawn will come running after me, I know he won't.
11:49.
It's Saturday and I've slept in. My phone is off and I'm scared to turn it on. I don't want to see any pictures of last night or videos, I don't want to be reminded of last night at all. However my curiosity gets the better of me and I turn on my phone and take a look on social media. Pictures and pictures of drunk people and people kissing and they don't bother me but then I see one that makes anger flow through me.