Pharaoh's Queen {HIATUS}

83: " Continuation "

Khai stretched and made an attempt to roll over when he felt something blocking him. He opened his eye. Kiya was up hugging her legs up to her chest and her slightly between her knees pushing her cheeks up . 

" I can tell you are upset over what I said" Khai turned on his back and placed his arm over his eyes. "But I had to say it," he exhaled.

"That is how it goes... as usual,"Kiya said not breaking out of her blank stare. "I do not believe anyone would like to be confronted with an argument entailing pure true facts."

"I knew you understood."

"Hmmm. However, that did not stop me from being upset."

"I know... it is all in your motive. All you want to do is to move  on..."

"And I want to do it  as fast as I possibly can. I do not want  to stay in this part of our lives any longer. I feel as if  we are forever trapped in this slow paced reel of time where there is only grief and sadness ."

"And you were willing to put yourself in danger?"

"No ," Kiya turned her head to face him ever so slightly. " I tried to push it. I feel as if I am going mad in my own body so I needed... I felt as if I needed to speed everything up  and maybe things would not feel  as trapped as they are at this moment."

"You are not used to that."

"Hmmm," Kiya gave a bland chuckled. "How could you tell?"

" I can say, based off what  you said I can understand why you did what you did. I have to say however, rushing certain situations will only make you wait longer you would have if you continued with the pace."

" I was careless. You were correct."

"I cannot take back what I said, I can only apologize for my tone."

"You can forget about that," Kiya brought her legs closer to her chest and rested her head on her knees. " I feel stupid to be honest. Just figuring out how someone could be selfish even though they claim to have others in mind."

"Please do not be so hard on yourself." Kiya was wise but she was still young. Khai knew that at one point or another her reasoning would be flawed even with good intentions in her heart. It would seem as if she lead him most of the time but he was there to take charge  where it counted the most. 

"I really do feel stupid for doing something of this nature. I really just could not bare it any longer." She covered her face with her hands . " My sweet boy," she whispered under her breath. " I am so sorry."

"I am here for you as always. In every way."

Kiya sighed..." Noe I feel like a child . now that you have to watch over me."

"Do not think of it in that manner," Khai gave a light laugh. "I just give a few glances . I just keep check.I have to , that is my job."

"Well..." Kiya stretched her legs out and made her hands drop limply to her side. She held her head down . " Can I commend you for a job well done... keeping me in check?" She exhaled heavily.

Khai removed his arm from his eyes, some thing he did just so she could have a proper conversation with him without an argument. He propped himself up so they were almost on the same level. " Do not worry about it as I said before. Do not let this dampen who you are. This will just sharpen your judgment I believe." Kiya tilted her head back before turning to Khai. The first she has given his eye contact since their previous argument.

"Listen , you are quite mature for your age..." Khai massaged his temples. " And as I think about what I said and how I cold have said it differently to prevent me from sounding old, it is true. You know and understand so much, but not everything. You were desperate for a fact. Being desperate for something can alter your judgment more than you know. You understand now and that is what matters because I trust you will not make the same mistake twice knowing the consequence at hand." Khai reached out and poked  her arm repeatedly with his finger.

"You are a wonderful mother , look how much you have sacrificed. You put yourself out of the way for Naeem. If you cannot agree that you are trying your best and doing everything you can the way you know how I am forced to do this forever."

"It surprises me how you can change from 103 to 3 in the blink of an eye."

"Seems as if It worked . You look more relaxed."

"Hmm..."Kiya  paused. " This reminded me of your observation which was rather impressive. Since when are you that keen."

"I have been with Naeem for a while and as you may  know he rarely moves or makes a sound. So, most of my time includes watching  him to see if he has any intension of sleeping so I can put him down."

Kiya covered her mouth to muffle her laughter. " You do not have to hold him all the time."

"He looks at me and makes feel guilty. That is all he asks for other than love , shelter, you and food...which is also still you at this point. I just have to comply. How could I say no? It would kill  me inside."

"Ha," Kiya laughed. " You are something else. He is lucky to have you... we are both lucky to have someone like you."