Dan & Phil Oneshots

Dear Readers

My Dear Readers,

I am so sorry I have not been keeping up with this book, or any book for that matter. My academic life has taken over and creativity has dropped. Does this mean I am going to quit writing? No. However, it means I most likely will only be able to publish during school breaks. Also, I just wanted to catch you guys up on what's been going on in my life.

So over the summer, I found out I might be gender queer. I attended pride, surrounded myself with good people, and explored my gender in hopes of finding out what it was. Right as I was about to come out, I started taking birth control. It messed with my hormones and basically nullified my gender. I was stuck as female. Some days I would wake up repulsed by the idea of wearing skirts and dresses but not feeling any of the male/non-binary mindset and dysphoria that came with it. My parents didn't understand and there were a lot of times when I wanted to give up all hope on getting my gender back, but my friends kept me going. I managed to get off of the pill a few weeks ago and now my hormones are almost entirely back to normal.

And more importantly, I feel like my old self again. I have dysphoria at times. I sometimes am surprised by how high my voice is because it sounds so much deeper in my mind. Sometimes I wear a sports bra to hide the two weird pillows on my chest. Sometimes I pack using a sock. For the most part, I feel like my assigned gender. But now, I have days where I just don't.

So to all of those out there who've followed my work for a while, or to those that are new, 

Hi. I'm molliepop89. I am genderfluid. My pronouns are she/they/he. 

Thank you for taking the time to read this.

-molliepop89