Good Intentions

Defiant

***I attempted to have more included in this chapter, but felt it was getting a bit too long. Let me know your opinion on chapter length. This one is almost 8k words. Also, please leave comments through out. Tell me how you are feeling about the details, it will help me, plus I just enjoy the interaction. ***

Putting my hair back in my clip I left the bathroom and starting walking to my bedroom door. It was open a little bit and I could hear the boys moving around and talking.

"..we can't tell her. Do you understand?" That stopped my dead in my tracks as I pressed up against the wall and held my breath. "I'm serious Lucian. You can not tell her." North's voice was hard and clipped. What couldn't they tell me. I mean I assumed it was me. Maybe I was being a little presumptuous but I just had a feeling. After a beat, Luke replied in a questioning voice. "Okay North, we won't tell her." I was starting to get angry, angry like I had the other day when I was fighting with North about the sawdust pile. Then Luke whispered under his breath so quietly I barely heard him, "just one more secret to add to all the others."

At that I turned around and walked away from the door down the hall and down the stairs.

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Sang POV

I needed to get a grip and get a hang of my emotions so that I could understand what I was feeling and why. The past three days have been so out of character for me that I really wasn't sure what I was doing anymore, just as I had told Kota in the attic. Sitting at the kitchen table, waiting for the boys to come down stairs, I thought about why I was getting so angry. I knew there were things that they couldn't tell me. I knew that when it came to Academy work, they were not permitted to share certain things with me, and that it wasn't even up to them. But somehow this felt different. Unlike myself, they were very good liars. If they were keeping Academy secrets from me, what was stopping them from keeping other secrets from me as well? I didn't know they bugged my phone. North was watching me over the camera's as I slept. I barely ever knew what Mr. Blackbourne and Dr. Sean were up to.

I grunted to myself knowing that I was thinking in circles. I had to be okay with the fact that they kept secrets from me. Didn't I? I told them I understood, so that means I just have to accept it right? Plus, didn't I still have my own secrets. I was playing with my lower lip when Luke and North walked into the kitchen. Luke was prattling on about something dinner related and North was barely paying him any attention. When they  both realized that I was sitting at the table just scowling at it, North stepped to my side and placed his hand on my shoulder.

"You ok Baby?" He asked me in a gentle voice. I paused for a moment. Should I say something? Should I tell them that I heard them talking and that I was hurt by it? Or angry about it? No. If I couldn't even decide how I felt about it, then no, I wasn't going to say anything. I shrugged my shoulder a little roughly, which caused his hand to fall off. That hadn't been my intention but I was okay with it. They were all always touching me and I didn't really understand why.

"Yea North, why wouldn't I be okay?" I answered with a steady voice. I couldn't lie but I could tell half truths, just like Mr. Blackbourne had taught me. I was okay. I wasn't bleeding or sick. He hadn't asked me if I was sad or angry. I was okay, and I had no reason to not be. I stood up from my chair and walked over to grab my bag. Turning to them both I asked, "are we ready to go?" Both Luke and North stared at me with a look I couldn't really identify. They seemed a little shocked and a little wary. Luke specifically looked like was was trying to solve a complex problem. He looked worried and guilty.

"Yea Cupcake, we are ready." Luke answered slowly. "Did you eat already?" He asked. I think he knew the answer but he asked anyway. I looked at him for a second before answering. I hadn't eaten this morning, but again that is not what he asked.