Forever and always (Matt Espinosa)

Chapter: 39

**read important authors note at end**

Britney's POV

"So I was thinking about writing a new song..-" Shawn talked to me, but I couldn't focus.

I stared off into space, wondering why she was here. Why? We were finally happy. Matt and I were stronger than ever, Taylor's dating Breanna. Then this hoe comes along. Like bish whet.

"Britney." Shawn waved his hand in front of my face. I shook my head.

"What?"

"Should I write a new song?" He asked, setting his guitar down.

"Sure! That sounds good. You'll have to get it ready by tomorrow.." I told him and he looked down.

"I know." He said sadly and Matt spoke up.

"Shawn! We can help you." Matt told Shawn and his eyes sparkled.

"Really?" He asked, Matt nodded.

I was laying on my stomach with my feet up in the air, Matt sat on the back of my thighs and laid down on me.

I chuckled, pulled out my snapchat, and took a picture.

"Babe." I said and he looked into the camera.

He stuck out his tongue and I smiled. I posted it to my story and went onto twitter.

"Britney's so fat."

"She needs to kill herself."

"'Matt is mine."

"Ew. What an ugly whore."

"Bitch ass whore fucker."

"Damn." I said under my breath.

Matt looked over my shoulder. "Britney, don't listen to them." He kissed my cheek looking worried.

"Oh, don't worry. I don't care. I think it's funny." I pointed out my favorite comments. "Look! They even got it worldwide trending. Right under #whywehatetaylorcaniff. This is so cool!" I grinned and Matt looked at me, raising an eyebrow.

"Cool? They worldwide trended #britneyneedstokillherself." He told me and Shawn dropped his guitar pick.

"They what?" Shawn asked and sat down in front of me.

"They got #britneyneedstokillherself world wide trending." I told him, showing him my phone.

He looked confused.

"You're happy about this?" Shawn asked me, and I laughed.

"Duh! Why wouldn't I be? Hate accounts, thought that tweeting bad things about me would hurt me, it doesn't. It actually makes me laugh. Because they 'hate' me, yet they're spending all their time talking about me." I told the boys, smiling.

Shawn stared at me with wide eyes and Matt kissed my lips passionately.

Shawn looked away, causing me and Matt to laugh. "Let's get back to the song." I offered and sat up in Matt's lap.

"Ok." Shawn smiled, laughing and pulled out his song book.

"Where's Jenna?" I asked looking around the room.

"I'm meeting her out in Toronto for Magcon." He said with his pencil between his teeth.

"So, what do you want the song to be about?" Matt asked and Shawn shrugged.

"I honestly don't know." He sighed. "Something about not worrying about what people say about us."

"So you don't have the time to be sorry?" Matt suggested and Shawn looked up slightly.

"You should put something in there about taking shots, with no regrets." I told him standing up, walking into the kitchen.

I grabbed the grapes from the refrigerator door and walked back into the living room. Matt pulled me on his lap.

Shawn's eyes sparkled. "I got it! Thank you so much Britney!" He pretty much tackled me to the ground.

"Shawn. You have your own girlfriend." He pulled me into a hug and smirked.

He laughed and got off of me.

"Babe, I'm going to bed, we have to wake up early tomorrow." I slowly got off Matt's lap and stood up.

"Alright, I'll be up in a minute." He told me, checking his twitter mentions.

"You don't have to, stay down here, talk to Shawn." I tried telling him, but he stopped me.

"No, I'm coming up there with you. I'm tired." He yawned making me laugh.

I went over to Shawn and hugged him. "Night Shawn." I kissed his cheek.

"Night, Brit." He hugged me back, and I walked upstairs to the guest room.

I grabbed my PINK sweatpants out of my duffel and a property of Nash Grier hoodie.

I pulled back the comforter and sheets and slipped into bed.

A little while later before I dozed off, Matt came in. I turned to him and he slipped off his polo shorts and put on some sweatpants. He took his shirt off and got into bed next to me.

I cuddled into his chest and his chin rested on my head. He pulled away and looked into my blue eyes.

"I love you." He said kissing the tip of my nose.

"And I love you." I said back blushing, and kissing the corner of his lips.

"Why don't you ever say I love you too?" He asked me, pulling me closer.

"Because, then it makes me feel like I'm agreeing and I don't mean it. But I do mean it. I do love you." I kissed him. "So why take the time to say another word when the 3 words speak for itself."

"I love you, baby."

My skin gets goosebumps at those words.

"I love you." I snuggled into his chest even more and listened to his heart beat until i fell asleep.

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