I was gonna kill myself last night but it wasn't a Saturday, I was so tired and I'm seeing someone tomorrow. I haven't seen this person in over a year I think and I'm very anxious about it. When I first messaged them I wasn't really expecting anything to come from it, I thought that they would just try and get rid of me. I think they probably think I'm a bit of a weirdo and honestly I don't know why anyone would want to talk to me. However they have agreed to meet up with me. I even messaged them today telling them they could cancel if they wanted and I wouldn't be offended, they still want to see me. I'm not gonna count my chickens just yet though, if they do turn up tomorrow they probably will never talk to me afterwards. They are one of those people who don't talk to you unless you talk to them and I just can't deal with friendships like that anymore. So many people have let me down that I have decided to stop making an effort with people that can't be asked to make an effort with me. That's not me being horrible about anyone in particular, actually I think these people who cut me out of their lives are smart. You should get rid of all the negative in your life and I was that negativity that they wanted to get rid of. I would say I'd do the same but I seem to have a pattern of keeping abusive people in my life and holding onto them or memories of them.
Not that any of this matters considering I have no plans to be alive by the 30th or be apart of 2019.
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My Journey To Normality (Part 2)
Short Story•This is a story based on true events about someone who is on their journey to recovery from mental illness. Their questioning of gender and sexuality. Going through relationships and break ups. Just an all about coming of age story of a person that...
