I honestly have no idea what my head is doing at the moment. There have been some days and moments this week where I've been really good. I've been productive and motivated. I met up with a friend and her friends and had a really good time. Somehow every social interaction I have with people ends up in a conversation about gender, mental health or both, but I don't mind that. I even booked an doctors appointment, I'd been putting it off all week but I actually booked it for the Monday on my week off.
However I then have days and moments where I'm really not okay. It's not just the starving of myself or the binge eating, which I need to get a handle on, it's also the planning to do something stupid. I'm not just planning on trying to kill myself again, I'm planning something way worse. We'll have to see what happens, honestly it scares me knowing what I could do. I wouldn't do it if it wasn't necessary though.
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My Journey To Normality (Part 2)
Short Story•This is a story based on true events about someone who is on their journey to recovery from mental illness. Their questioning of gender and sexuality. Going through relationships and break ups. Just an all about coming of age story of a person that...
