Halsey
'Cause I can sometimes treat the people that I love like Jewelry...
I've missed your calls, your voice for months now Jimin, but it feels like forever. I didn't realize how mean I could be to you, the beauty that is you. You're not the only one I've done this to; tried on, left and abandoned. Even my friends I treat like jewelry that I've become disinterested in. I can change my mind each day from loving you to loathing your existence; I didn't mean to treat you like I did, I promise it wasn't my intention to try you on and leave. Fuck Jimin, I still remember each of your birthday's and the cute celebrations we used to have; I even remember the songs your mother used to sing around the house when I would come over. I'm sorry that I can't believe that you really fell in love with me, I'm sorry that I was blind to how much I meant to you and that I left everything we had behind. I said it was for my self betterment, but there is no getting better; I'm just too afraid to go back because what if I hurt you again? It was always this carousel of me leaving because I was afraid and coming back because I couldn't stand how much I missed you.
I ran away when things were good because nothing ever seemed right; I never felt like I was never good enough for you no matter how many times you told me I was and no matter how much you showed me. I never understood how you laid your eyes on me, like no one ever has before; they were so full of love and admiration every time you took a brief glance or stare like I was artwork. I was so ignorant and I broke your heart. I failed to see everything that I did to you and it tore you open and left you in pieces.
It didn't hurt me as much as it hurt you when I left because of how apathetic I am. I remember telling you that if you didn't care so much that you would've been fine. But you see, that's what made you so special, you cared. I let that go because I didn't know what else to do. I promise that someone will love you, but, Jimin, I don't think that someone is me and I'm so sorry.
Yoongi wiped his eyes and sniffled as he put the letter in the box with all of the others that he had written to Jimin. He was so fucked up that he broke the only person that he ever wanted and could ever ask for. Yoongi didn't want to hurt Jimin any further than he already has, so he never sent the letters and never answered Jimin's calls or texts. Of course he loved him, but Jimin would be better off with someone else.
