Trigger Warning ⚠️ Mention of suicide, panic attack and a car wreck
You shot up in your bed panting heavily, your chest feeling tight as your eyes well up with tears. You quickly moved your way over to a chair in the corner of your room and started to cry. Nightmares that stopping a while ago had started to resurface, but despite them being the same, the feelings and images were still vivid.
Your chest heaved up and down as you started to cry more and breathe more. You didn't know why they came back. They made you want to dangle from the rope that was swinging back and forth in your mind at night or go through the car windshield just as you saw it in dreams. The car wreck never happened, as you don't drive, but the suicide... it's been years since it happened.
"Y/N," Hobi called out groggily.
Hoseok was a light sleeper and wakes up if he feels you get out of bed or move around a lot. It was a blessing and a curse that he slept like this.
You didn't respond to him calling to you and just sat in the corner crying on the brink of a panic attack.
He heard your sniffling crying and slid his way out of bed and walked over to you, sitting on the floor in front of the chair and grabbed your hand.
"What's wrong bear?" He asks, worry infecting his voice.
You just shook year head and sobbed harder.
"Baby," he sighed, "please talk to me."
You choked on your words trying to tell him that it was just a bad dream.
"Try to breathe and calm down before you try to speak," he said tiredly while rubbing your hand with his thumb.
You nodded and tried. It took you a long time to calm down, he shushed and cooed you when you'd cry harder. He held your hand and talked reassuringly until you were calmed down.
"The dreams again," you spoke emptily.
"They're back?" He asked, his voice filled concern.
You nodded and he exhaled a heavy breath.
"Go get cleaned up baby and we'll lay back down okay?"
"Okay," you whispered back and stood up slowly.
When you came back he was sitting crisscross on bed waiting for you. You crawled to him and he held you in his arms when you laid down. The two of you talked, trying to take your mind off of the dreams. You eventually fell asleep at peace in his arms.
"I love you Y/N," he said closing his eyes and drifting off.
