Jimin stared at his reflection crying and disgusted with himself and who he became.
He sat down on the bed, staring at the comforter and stroking the blankets. He was revulsed at himself. He's disgusted because he got to see Yoongi in such an intimate way in their relationship. There was nothing wrong with Yoongi, he was perfect in every way to Jimin, it was just disgusting to Jimin that Yoongi let him see him in such a vulnerable way, a way he didn't deserve. Jimin felt no different than the assholes that used Yoongi before because, really, he wasn't. He didn't use Yoongi but the ending 2-3 months of their relationship, he emotionally abused him and that is so much worse.
Jimin was disgusted that he got to see Yoongi in a way that Yoongi took so long to let him see. Jimin always thanked Him and always let him know how lucky he felt that he got to see Yoongi like that. They weren't end game like they thought they would be and Jimin was disgusted that Yoongi wasted that type of intimacy on him. That he let Jimin touch him in such ways as that.
Jimin also felt disgusting with knowing that he let Yoongi do that to him. He felt like a whore and he regrets begging for their first time. He wants to shove away the fact that he was what Yoongi thought about when his mind wandered in the day. He's disgusted that he still wished for Yoongi back and not even for those reasons.
There are so many things that Jimin can't forget and this is the first that he's been ashamed of. He feels so broken as he stares at the blanket embroidered with llamas that Yoongi left behind. At least he has something left.
(A/N): this is every different from how I normally write but this felt natural. A lot of things will be yoonmin as this is the ship that fits the relationship I just lost so well. I hope it's enjoyed.
