Blue Tomorrow (Super Junior Fan Fic)

Chapter 21: Metanoia

[Leyvine POV]

After 2 weeks I was discharged already from the hospital. Although on the first week I already felt better but the boys insisted me to stay more for me to have enough rest. Some of them stayed with me if they don't have schedule and keep me company and one of the touching part here is they switch some of their schedules just to be with me. In those times I was able to know them more individually, like Yesung do really love turtles and he had one back in the dorms (how come I didn't notice it? Well, I'm not invading their room.) Heechul on the other hand love his cat pet who he named as Heebum. Shindong also opened up his love life to me by introducing her girlfriend to me whose name is Nari, well, she visited me also sometimes in the hospital. Eunhyuk loves to dance so sometimes I told him to dance for me and I just find myself amuzed on how great he is. And of course, ryeowook sings me lullabies whenever he is with me in the hospital.

Days had passed and I noticed that Kyuhyun is always at the dorm, he attends his usual schedule but he spends most of his time inside the dorm and talking to me or sometimes we're playing online games, well, I was able to adapt into his world and with this, we became closer to each other that one day I just realized that everytime he's near, I can't held but to be nervous and at the same time cautious of my actions, as my heart skip a beat and I could feel that my blood rush up to my face, am I really falling for him?. One day, I was resting in my hospital room and I thought that I will be alone today since Teukie said to me that they have their schedules today, until someone knock on my door, it was Donghae.

"Hi Lei, how are you?" he said as he approached me.

"what are you doing here?"

"uhmm.. I think I need to talk to you.." he stuttering said.

I was silent for awhile since I don't know how I will react on what he said. Although he visited me the past few days, but this is the first time he is alone.

"okay, can you help me get up? I think this place is not the appropriate for us to talk." I said as he assisted me and he pull over the wheel chair for me to sit on. Even though I'm feeling much better now, but there are times that my legs still feel weak.

We went outside the hospital where there is a nice place where cool breeze coming from the trees can be felt. After a minutes, he begun to talked.

"I know that it is too late already, but still I want to clear anything to us, and believe me, it was not easy for me." He said, as I remained silent and continues to listen to him.

"What you saw in the rehearsals room weeks ago is true, as man, I dulge in to my own weakness and I really regret it. The girl you saw was my ex-girlfriend, and I admit, I forgot that moment that I have you, I know I can't heal the pain itself, you could be mad at me forever, but I want you to know that I already repented it. With all of these, I do hope you could forgive me." He said and I saw tears running down in his face that evidence the sincerity is coming from his heart.

I took a deep breath and said.

"It happened already oppa, and I admit also, it's really painful on me. I loved you the best way I could, and I thought I was enough for you to stay by my side, but I was wrong. We end up hurting each other on what happened." I said coldly.

"No Lei, you did not do anything wrong. It was me, don't carry the blame all by yourself." He said as he is now holding my hand with his cold and soft hands.

The reality is, I can't seem to forget that incident. It maybe because I don't know the reason why he done that, but now that he explained it to me, I somehow felt relieved and decide on what I think is the best for both us.