Saturn gives us a chance to look inside ourselves, which we would usually sweep under the rug. Saturn is transiting near my Nadir and I have already seen my problems with both learning and family issues.
On one hand, I've come to terms with the fact that if I don't graduate in time, life is gonna play it hard on me. First of all, my financial support is gonna end around that point and attending college would no longer be an comfort.
On the other hand, I have seen my Dad boasting around about me and I don't think he is going to accept the hard truth that I am a loser. And when he is mad, my life would be miserable, too. So yeah, let's make sure I can be out of his sight as soon as possible.
Thus, I am going to graduate on time, by which I mean:
- 5 subjects per stage of each semester
- Spend the rest of this stage to study for HSK6
- Translate the rest of my book
- Write as much Chinese as possible and ask for my tutor's help to correct them
But I'm not sure if it's still the right time for travelling. I've always thought that if it's not now, then it would be never. In retrospect, when Jupiter reaches my 3rd house (1 year from now on) and 4th house/ Aquarius stellium (2 years from now on), I believe there would be many chances for me to set off. Moreover, when it touches my 2nd house Sagittarius Pluto, I should be more than able to afford my trips.
Therefore, even though I still desire to leave everything behind and set off, I now don't consider it my first priority any more. There are many many other tasks I should complete first or else, there would be no other chances.
But I assume I shouldn't resist my inner callings. If I am always that passionate about seeing the world, I should be willing to pay the opportunity cost. Thus, want to travel? Work your ass off! And in case you find yourself prefer your cozy bedroom to going out and talking to people, then don't bother whining about travel to anyone else.
One last thing, there is no point worrying about where you will end up after graduating, you can never know. Because you are happy with what you do, just make sure you do your best in them. That would not guarantee anything, but it is better than standing still.
