Meditation never appears easy to me, even though I started it out at a relatively young age. Unlike a lot of others, I resorted to this method only in an effort to lengthen my attention span, which is quite rare because it seems like a minor problem and does not really affect my life.
However, the thing is, I always feel like losing control of my life whenever I cannot keep myself under my conscious mind. From time to time, when I suddenly realize my mind wandering around in the midst of a lesson or unconsciously switching tabs when I am supposed to read an article, I do really feel like looking down on myself.
Ok, that sounds harsh, but you get the idea. Actually, I should be taking note on a meditation lesson right now, but I opt to write these nonsense words only to force myself go back to the original task. Ironic, isn't it?
