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[35] Just like Romeo And Juliet
Lao Tzu once said.. "Life is a series of natural and spontaneous changes. Don't resist them - that only creates sorrow. Let reality be reality. Let things flow naturally forward in whatever way they like."
We can never tell or obliged someone to stay the way WE WANT them to be.
We can never run our lives the way we want it to be.. There will always be problems, conflicts, hinders.. You can't. Nobody can't have that FAIRYTALE LIKE ENDING.
Happiness? Don't expect too much.. Because.. When there's happiness on the way, there will always be sadness ready on the go to take that away.
It's been a week.. It's been a week since I last saw her.. Ayaw nya akong papasukin sa hospital room..
Ayaw nya akong kausapin.. Ayaw nyang marining ung boses ko. Ayaw nyang magpunta ako sa ospital.. Therefor..
Remember when I say.. BABIES.. We lost one of them.. It's the baby girl.. And we were supposed to have twin girl and boy.. So, the baby boy's still there..
Pero, galit parin sya sakin.. I don't know why..
Masama bang sya ang pinili ko kasi ayokong mawala sya sakin?
I know it's selfish. Pero hindi lang naman sya ang nasasaktan.. Pakiramdam ko nga.. Mas nasasaktan pa ako.. Kasi ako ung pumili.. Kung hindi ako pipili.. Mawawala silang lahat sa buhay ko..
And I just can't stand the thought of that.
It's been a week.. Nasa hospital parin sya.. She's been unconcious for 3 days.. The moment na dumilat ung mata nya at nakita nya na ako ung nasa tabi ng hospital bed nya.. She cursed me to get out.
Nung una nga ayaw ko.. Pero, pinilit nalang ako ni Kuya Jay kasi.. Mukhang mas mahihirapan daw si Marie kung makikita nya ako..
So, everybody's blaming me, huh? What the actual fuck is wrong with them? Tingin ba nila hindi ako nahirapan na ginawa kong sobrang complicated na decision nayun? Tangina.
Gusto kong magalit kay Marie at ipaintindi sa kanya na WALA NAMAN TALAGA AKONG KASALANAN.
Kung pwede lang.. Ayokong may mawala sa kanilang tatlo.. Kung pwede lang. Sana ako nalang kesa isumpa ako ni Marie ng ganito. Tingin ko, mas masakit ung part ko dito..
Plus the fact that everybody seems to blame it on me. Fuck.
Do they have the slightest idea how do I feel the moment when the doctor asked me .. "Is it your wife or your kid?"
NI hindi na nga ako nakaisip ng matinong sasabihin.. Ang nasabi ko nalang.. "Save my wife."
And that's when she told me never show my face again. Oh, God.
Hindi ko talaga alam.. Kung paano ko ba ipapaintindi sa kanya ung gusto kong mangyari kaya pinili kong iligtas sya..
When life knocks you down, try to land on your back. Because if you can look up, you can get up. Let your reason get you back up.
Feels like nothing is gonna get any better..
Mukhang sa mga panahon na'to.. Isa lang ang mapupuntahan na laging bukas at handang tumanggap sakin at kahit kanino..
Pupunta nalang ako ng.
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Simbahan.
And just like Romeo And Juliet..
We're on the tragic peak of our story.
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AN Heartbreaking ba ung last chapter? <////3 Masakit talaga.
Kung ako man yun baka isumpa ko na si Jeanne. :(
BTW, enjoy. :3
Sa ngayon kay Jeanne muna iikot ang storya. :3
#BAE
