I Never Wanted To Love You (or did I...)

I Forgot // Whizzvin

A/N I didn't like how weird my chapters looked without putting Whizzvin after the title. I just got so used to it so it's back

Also You know I love you all right. And you know how you would never want to hurt me...

Love youuuuuuuuu

Marvin couldn't believe his eyes. He thought if he ever saw Whizzer again, it would be accidental. Not at his sons baseball game. Before Marvin could speak, Trina grabbed his wrist.

"Can I quickly speak to you?" She asked. Marvin glanced at Whizzer, he nodded his head and walked with Trina away from the stands.

"What's wrong? Is it Whizzer? I'm sure we can move away from him before he sees us." Marvin said.

"No, Jason and I asked him to come. We wanted to see if you could help." Trina replied.

"Why?"

"Whizzer rang me a few days ago. He said he'd been in an accident, he couldn't remember anything at first. But then he remembered Jason, Mendel, Trina and you. But he doesn't know why he knows us" Trina confessed

"He doesn't remember...so I get a second chance!" Marvin beamed.

"No. I already asked him. He doesn't remember your relationship. He doesn't remember your love or connection"

"I don't understand..."

"Marvin I'm going to be blunt with you. Okay?" Trina asked and Marvin nodded his head "He doesn't love you anymore. He can't remember ever doing such a thing"

Marvin felt his whole world crashing down. When Whizzer had first said he didn't love him anymore, Marvin never once believed that it would come true. He looked over at Whizzer. He felt a light tugging in his chest.

"I...I need to go. Tell Jason I'm sorry"

Trina nodded her head and watched as he walked away.

"Where's Marvin going?" Whizzer asked.

"Home."

"Why? Jason is up" He asked as Trina looked at him

"He missed you so much. He wanted you back so bad. The last thing you said to him before you left was 'Do I love you? No'. And now," she turned to look at Marvin as he drove away "you definitely don't"

Whizzer never thought about this before. He knew he had some sort of relationship with Marvin. But he knew that was in the past. And if that was the last thing that he had said to the latter, he couldn't imagine how Marvin was feeling right now.

"Trina, Will you drive me to Marvin's house after the game?"

"I think we should go now"

***

Marvin sat on his garden patio. The only man who he had ever loved, didn't remember anything. It could be seen as a blessing. No memory of the fights and violence. No memory of their terrible past. That was something that Marvin envied. The fact that Whizzer didn't remember he good bits was the hard part. He could fight to get Whizzer back. He could try all he wanted. But he knew, deep down, it wouldn't work.

There was no point.

There is no point.

All he ever wanted and all he ever trusty needed was far out of his reach.

"I'm sorry." Marvin turned round and saw Whizzer standing at the door. "Trina drove me here. I wanted to talk"

"Talk about what?" Marvin asked as the latter sat next to him "We have nothing to talk about"

"I remember loving you. I remember the feeling of warmth, but I just don't remember how to feel it"

"I don't understand Whizzer."

"Okay. Take this piece of grass as an example" Whizzer stayed as he grabbed a small piece of grass.

"You're comparing our relationship to grass?"

"No...Yes...Shut up Marvin!"

The pair looked at each other and laughed.

"Put your hand flat." Whizzer put the grass in Marvin's hand "you feel the grass" Marvin nodded his head. Whizzer smiled and took the grass back " now rub your hands together" Marvin did so "Do you remember holding the grass?"

"Yeah why would I."

"But can you tell me exactly what it felt like? Can you tell me how it felt on your hand?"

"No because my hands are tingling slightly from rubbing them toge...oh. I see"

"Marvin" Whizzer grabbed ahold of Marvin's hands "You have to understand that I'm sorry. But I do remember the feeling. And I want to...I want to feel that feeling again. I want to love you because iI know deep down somewhere, I do love you. I just don't know how. I don't remember how it was before. Did I love it or hate it? Why did I leave? But then again, I don't want to know. I want to love the person you are now. Not the person you were back then."

"Whizzer."

"Yeah?"

"You has me at I love you"

A/N This book hit 3K!!!

Thank you so much