I Never Wanted To Love You (or did I...)

You Used Me // Whizzvin

A/N so I was reading a one shot book and I was really inspired by one of their ideas so I thought I'd put my own depressing twist on it.

Marvin felt terrible. He hadn't seen the man in year yet here he was laying in bed after using him to distract himself. Marvin had rang Whizzer multiple times in the last month or so for sex. In his brain it was the only way he could distract himself from all his problems. In Whizzer's brain, it was love.

It was now that Marvin realised how badly he had screwed with the younger mans feeling. How badly he had led him on. He needed to know before it all turned to shit.

It was a cold Sunday evening. Marvin laid in his bed with Whizzer arms wrapped around him tightly. Their legs where intertwined and the only sound was Whizzer's deep breaths as he slept. Marvin, however, was wide awake. He had to tell him but how. There was no way he was just going to turn round and say "I don't love you". So he waited.

It's had been 6 months now. Marvin still hadn't told Whizzer. He knew it was wrong but he couldn't bring himself to say anything. All he could do was watch Whizzer fall harder and harder in love.

It finally came to 9 months and Marvin knew he had to stop it. But he couldn't. He'd started to fall for the latter again. Whizzer needed to know.

It was a warm summer's evening when it finally clicked in Marvin's mind. The pair were sitting in a small secluded park near their apartment. There was no one else around and the birds quietly tweeted in the trees.

"Whizzer, I need to tell you something."

"Sure what is it?" Whizzer smiled and stared at Marvin lovingly.

This was going to be harder than he thought. "For the first 6 months of seeing each other again, I...I didn't...I'm sorry."

"Marvin you're scaring me." Whizzer said and he held onto Marvin's hand tighter.

The older man sighed. He looked at the grass in front of him and took a deep breath, "Look I was going through a rough time. My whole family was falling apart and I didn't know how to let out my emotions. That's when I called you and... Whizzer I love you so much. I've realised that over these past couple of months. I'm so sorry"

When he looked up, he was met with broken eyes. He saw the pain ripping through Whizzer's body.

"So you-you used me for your own personal gain."

"Whizzer I..."

"How long? How long before you realised you love me again?"

"...six months..."

"Oh my god." Whizzer chocked. "I need to go."

"Whizzer wait."

"Don't call me Marvin." Whizzer snapped as he slowly walked away. When he felt as though he was far enough away he began to run.

Marvin watched him until he was far out of sight. The only though that ran through Marvin's mind was

There he goes again.

A/N Part three for Fallen Angel will be our soon