In Another Lifetime

Heaven

To put it simply, I didn't want to take over. In reality, I had a lot more experience than he did, there was no question about that. But in my wish, I wanted him to be the experienced one. I wanted him to be in control. I didn't want him to be reminded that I was older than him, even if at the moment it was only in mind. I was sure he hadn't forgotten it anyway, because I sensed that that was the reason it felt awkward for him.

~♡~

His groan deepened, and he stared into my eyes, looking unsure for a second. I sensed his hesitation, and gave him a smile, hoping to put him at ease.

"Here and now, Tae..." I whispered.

"I know...I just..." he shook his head, not saying any more.

"I'm sorry this is so awkward for you. It's hard to pretend you don't know what you do."

"It's not that, Delaney. I see you as a 20 year old girl, and that's how I think of you, how I'll treat you. I've put everything else out of my mind. I guess it's just...I realize that in terms of experience," his eyes met mine, worry clouding them, "I just don't want to disappoint you.

"Taehyung, you could never disappoint me, not ever."

He nodded, his eyes closing briefly, pulling me to him again, his lips pressing to my forehead. I let my hands travel over his back, my heart pounding so loud in my ears it was all I could hear.

I closed my own eyes, letting the fact that I was standing here, naked, with Kim Taehyung, who was also naked, sink into my brain. It was almost too much to take.

Our bodies were touching from head to toe, and I felt myself get warm all over at the knowledge that he was going to make love to me. I bit my lip, feeling a tear form in the corner of my eye. This was unreal.

"I can't believe this is happening." I whispered.

His hands cupped my face, his lips connecting with mine again, and he kissed me breathless, stopping only long enough for us both to take a breath, then kissing me some more.

He stopped, pulling away, his hands now finding mine, our bodies separating, and I missed his warmth immediately. He backed up a bit more, his gaze traveling from my face, down my body, then back up again.

"You're beautiful..."

I ducked my head, a bit flustered at his boldness, and his compliment, but I let my eyes move down his body, the same as he had done to me.

I drew in a breath through my nose, exhaling slowly through pursed lips, and raised my gaze to his. He let go of one hand, and turned, leading me closer to the bed. He reached down, lifting the covers and pulling them back, and he sat, moving so he was on the other side, and I sat once he had moved, feeling him lie down, and reach for me as I leaned back on the pillow.

He pulled me to him, pulling the covers over us to our waists, and we faced each other, staring into each others eyes. I got the feeling he wanted to say something, but was holding back.

"What is it? I know you have something on your mind." I didn't know if he would answer, but I hoped he knew he could say anything he needed to.

He shook his head. "It's nothing. Just thinking about how lucky I am."

I knew that wasn't what he was thinking, and that he just didn't want to tell me. I wasn't going to push, though. I had no right to try to make him talk about something he didn't want to talk about.

His hand came up, his fingers lightly touching my cheek, and I closed my eyes, the feather soft touch moving down my neck to my shoulder. His finger moved slowly across my collar bone, just his simple touch causing my heart to beat faster.