In Another Lifetime

Epilogue

Taehyung and I talked for an hour the first time I called him. He'd worried, because I'd cried before we even started talking. But It was only because I'd been overwhelmed to hear his voice.

I assured him that I was fine, doing very well, actually, and it took me a bit of time, but I think I finally convinced him that I really was okay.

I told him what had been going on in my life, and that it had taken some time, but it had actually gotten better since I'd returned from my 30 days with him.

I told him how Jason had found a great job, and was doing very well. How he'd become pretty close to the man he was when I'd met him, and that we were working on 'us', but that there where things I weren't sure would ever be the same. Despite that, things were going really well between us.

I left out the part about how we were kind of living as what seemed like married friends. There had still been no kissing, no touching, no intimacy at all. He hadn't suggested it, and neither had I. I didn't think I ever would. I assumed he was just giving me time. But I didn't know if there would ever be enough time.

I couldn't bring myself to want my husband, and I knew it was because I was afraid. I was afraid that if I allowed myself to want him, and we ended up making love, it would erase every intimate moment I'd had with Taehyung. I was so afraid I'd end up forgetting his touch over time, and I didn't want that to happen. Not ever. But I wouldn't tell him that.

He was so happy to hear that I had opened up my own Salon. It was doing well, even though it was just me at the moment. I had a small clientele, and I scheduled appointments in a way that allowed me to handle them on my own. I hadn't decided yet if I would ever look into hiring anyone else. At the moment, I was happy with things just the way they were.

He giggled when I'd told him that I'd named the salon 'Bring The Scissors', getting my reference to the fact that I had an intense need to include BTS in some way.  Not only that, but I made sure to tell him that they were very much a part of the salon. I'd printed pictures of all of them in their various hair colors, and had them hanging around to give people ideas. Some of the younger crowd had actually been inspired, and I'd been able to let my creative side out, so happy to see their smiles once they saw the new vibrant color they'd chosen. I'd had a few people excited to go bold, and decide to try "V"ictory Blue or Park Jimin Pink, and Mint Yoongi had become very popular.

Aside from that,  he'd seemed touched that I also had posters hanging, a photo card board, pillows with each of their faces decorating the sofa and chairs in the waiting area, and their music playing all day. I hadn't had a customer complain yet, and actually, a few of them had questioned me about them, giving me the opportunity to teach them about these 7 young men who'd changed my life.

I knew he was smiling when I'd told him that I had an area that was specifically for kids, and had filled it with BT21 characters. I'd decorated the mirror with stickers, and plushies sat around the work surface, looking over my supplies, and I'd even had a custom smock created to cover them with that had Tata all over it. The kids that came in loved it.

It felt good to be able to tell him how much I enjoyed my days now. I loved getting up and going in to work, turning on that opened sign, and getting everything ready to start my day. I loved that this was my salon, that I got to decorate it how I wanted, and I had control of the appointments I accepted. Mostly, I loved how I had gotten customers of all ages, because it kept my days from being boring.

He'd talked about how exhausting the tour had been, but said that he wouldn't change one second of it for anything. He told me about the different places he'd had the opportunity to visit, and how much he enjoyed traveling, but that he wished he had more time to sight see.