In Another Lifetime

I was wrong

Maybe I should talk to him in the morning, and find out what he'd told her. I wasn't changing my mind, I had to put Tae first, and I just couldn't let him get hurt again over losing someone he had come to care about.

~♡~

DELANEY'S POV

I was pretty devastated. No, that was an understatement. The whole reason for me being here was to be close to Taehyung, and now he thought we should stay away from each other.

I'd seen neither hide nor hair of God the past few days. I decided that I was probably on my own, and would be figuring out the next 3 weeks as I went.

I wiped my eyes, realizing that crying wasn't going to do me any good. I was here for the duration. I couldn't go home early. I was either going to be a baby about it, and pout, or I could be a big girl and pretend I was fine.

I hoped I could pretend I was fine. For Taehyung.

I got up from the couch, going in the bathroom and rinsing my face with cold water. I really had no idea what I would do for the next week. I doubted I would even leave my apartment, because I didn't know my way around. I could probably ask how to get back to the Big Hit building, since I could get home from there, but what if people thought I was just trying to get close to BTS. Besides, no one would probably understand me anyway.

I guess I should be thankful for all the food in my fridge from the first night Tae had walked out, leaving me here crying. I was sure it would feed me for a week, as long as it lasted that long. Maybe I should stick a few containers in the freezer, just to be sure. I would do that tomorrow.

I grabbed my phone, walked to the bed, and climbed in. I swiped it open, and looked at it, debating on whether I should do what I was thinking, or just leave things the way they were. I decided to type something out, and see how I felt about it after I had put it into words.

Taehyung, I want you to know that I'm not mad at you. I won't lie, I am upset. I came here to spend time with you, I wouldn't be here if it weren't for you, and my wish to be close to you. But I do understand. I don't want you to have to suffer through another loss, so I will gladly give up the rest of my wish, if it keeps you from being hurt. Unfortunately, I'm stuck here for another 23 days, but I'll do my best to stay out of your way. Thank you for the time you have given me, I will never, ever forget what we have shared. I will cherish every second I have spent with you. Those moments, the memories, will be what gets me thru the tough times. Take care of yourself. Love, Delaney

I read over it, and decided that there really was no reason not to send it. It was the truth, and I wasn't embarrassed or afraid to tell him the truth. 

I closed my eyes, and remembered our night of lovemaking, of being as close to him as two people could get, the heat of our bodies warming each other. I remembered the feel of his lips against mine, his hands traveling over my skin, his palm closing over my breast, and I felt a throbbing sensation between my legs as I ached for him, wanting to hold him, touch him, be one with him again.

I would never forget that night. I hadn't expected anything like that would happen. The most I had hoped for was maybe some kissing, and hopefully a lot of hugs. But sex...had never crossed my mind.

I opened my eyes, looking at my phone again, and then I hit the send button. I figured he probably wouldn't get the message until later in the morning, and even if he happened to get it now, I didn't expect a reply either way.

I set my phone on the nightstand, and rolled over, pulling the sheet up, and closing my eyes again, trying to think sleep, but instead only thinking of Taehyung, and his touch.