In Another Lifetime

Lost in thought

She apologized for hurting me, and begged me to believe her. But I had closed off, locking my emotions away because I was so hurt. I told her I didn't believe her, and that I would be requesting a new stylist. I told her to get some help. Then, as she sat there crying, I walked out the door.

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TAEHYUNGS POV

I had gone back to work, closing myself in the hair and make up room, sitting in her stylists chair. I knew this was one place where no one would bother me, because they would never think to look for me here. I was confused, angry, and emotionally exhausted.

I couldn't understand how this could be happening, and despite that, I had believed her. She had no reason to make all that up. But I didn't want it to be true. I refused to accept it. Accepting it would make it real.

I had fallen for her, hard.

I ended up sleeping in that chair until she woke me up in the morning. I had been surprised to see her, figuring she wouldn't want to see me again after I'd been so cold towards her. But there she was, waking me up.

She talked. I listened. She broke my heart even more.

To hear her apologize for making her wish, and say that she had been selfish, thinking only of herself, and that she had tried to change it, but couldn't, was hard enough. But when she said that she just wanted some happiness, wanted a reason to smile, and that I had been her reason to smile every day since she'd learned of me, I realized what an idiot I'd been to walk out on her last night.

All she was worried about though, was that I still knew how much my fans loved me. She didn't want to have ruined that for me by doing what she had done. She apologized over and over, and explained why she decided to tell me.

I got up, wanting to hug her, and deciding that I couldn't let her think I was mad at her anymore. She said she could accept it if I didn't believe her, she just didn't want me to hate her.

I could never hate her.

I admitted that I believed her, but that I didn't want to. I made her understand that I wasn't upset with her for making her wish. I told her it would be okay.

I didn't really believe that. But I couldn't let her know that it was going to kill me to lose her. I didn't want her to feel any more guilty than she already did.

We got back to normal...at least as normal as we could be. Everything was okay.

Until now.

It had nothing to do with the key.

I finally got her to talk, and she admitted that she was upset and thinking so much about how she didn't want to go back. She was counting down the days, and  felt like every day went by that much quicker than the last.

She felt terrible for not wanting to go back, for wanting to just forget everything from her reality.

She carried on about how knowing why she was here, knowing that she was going to be able to remember everything, makes knowing how long she has even worse.

I asked her if she wouldn't have made the wish if she had known all that ahead of time.

Her answer had made my heart leap in my chest, both from happiness and sadness.

"I still would have wished for it, even if it was only a moment with you."

I didn't want her to think about it anymore. I wanted her to have the happiness that she wished for, even if it was only temporary. I knew she would carry the memories with her forever, and that was all that mattered.