In Another Lifetime

She'll never be yours

A slow smile spread across my face. It would take me about 20 minutes to walk to her apartment, 10 if I jogged. I knew I would be seeing her in 6 hours, along with everyone else. I didn't want to wait. I wanted a chance to see her alone, just her and I.

~♡~

DELANEY'S POV

I'd been surprised to receive a reply from him, honestly expecting that he'd be asleep. He needed to get some rest, or he wouldn't be able to concentrate tomorrow.

But I also knew that being upset made it hard to sleep. And he had been very upset when I'd walked out the door, leaving him standing there with tears running down his face. I hated myself for that. I should have tried to comfort him. I should have gone to him, and put my arms around him. I should have held him, like he would have done for me. But Taehyung was a better person than me.  I just didn't know how to give comfort at that point. My emotions were everywhere, and I no longer knew what was real, and what wasn't, so I did the only thing I could think of to do, and I'd walked away.

I was worried that maybe I had woke him up, by sending my message. He said I hadn't. He said he just couldn't sleep.

It was my fault he was awake, either way.

He said he could always come here, that he would sleep better beside me. I'd asked him what he was waiting for.

It was so late that I wasn't worried about him really coming here. At this point, I was honestly just so happy that he was speaking to me. Hopefully tomorrow, we could start over...and leave the hurt we'd both dealt with behind.

I only had 13 days left. I wanted to cry.

I got up to empty my bladder, and grabbed a bottle of water, which I knew was counterproductive, because in an hour, I'd probably have to pee again.

I sat back down on the bed, hoping that Tae had fallen asleep, since he hadn't replied to my last message fifteen minutes ago. Now if only I could sleep.

I opened the water, taking a long swallow, and set it on the nightstand. I started to lie back down when there was a knock on my door.

I shook my head at the fact that he'd actually walked here, at 2am, but I couldn't help the smile that spread across my face as I got up and walked to the door, opening it to see a grinning Tae standing there, holding a single rose.

He extended his hand, and I took the beautiful red rose, bringing it to my nose to smell it's sweet fragrance.

"You're crazy, you know that?"

"Crazy about you."

He stared into my eyes, and I knew just how hard it was going to be to keep the thoughts of how it would be without him away. But I had to, if I wanted to live each moment I had left with him to the fullest.

I stepped back, and he came in the door, closing it behind him.

"We need to sleep."

I nodded. He was right. Tomorrow would be hell for both of us, but more so for him.

I took his hand, and made my way to the bed, dropping the rose into what remained of the bottle of water.

I turned to look at him.

"I'm so sorry."

He shook his head.

"Don't be. I know this is hard on you. I understand."

He pulled me into his arms, holding me close to him, and everything felt perfect.

"I just don't want you to be scared." He mumbled, his lips close to my ear.