In Another Lifetime

For what it's worth

I bobbed my head, quirking my lips to one side. "I know, and thank you. I'll see you in the morning."

DELANEY'S POV

Jungkook had walked with me to my lobby, then said he was going to take a walk before he went home, and told me to have a nice evening. I watched him as he walked away, taking a deep breath before turning and pulling the door opened to head up to my apartment.

I didn't want to break Taehyungs heart. I hated the thought alone, much less the fact that it was most certainly going to happen.

It wasn't supposed to be like this. All those times that I had made the wish to be young, to be close to him, to be the one he cared about, how was I ever supposed to imagine that such a wish would be granted. But even so, I couldn't, not even for a second, imagine that he would actually, honestly, truly come to care about me like he does.

There were so many reasons why it just didn't seem possible for him to actually care for me. He was famous, I wasn't. But that made it sound like he might think he was better than me, and I knew that wasn't true. He lived in South Korea, I didn't. I would have thought that could create a problem, but so far, it seems it hasn't. We lived such different lives, his way of life, his customs, were something that I thought would determine the kind of girl he chose to date. Obviously, I had been wrong.

I got ready for bed, my mind spinning. When I had been told that he would quickly fall for me, and ask me to be his girlfriend, I assumed that it was just all part of the wish. That he would never really have feelings for me, that it was all just something God had made happen.

But I could feel that he cared about me, and I believed him when he said he didn't want to lose me.

The hardest part of all of this was understanding why it was happening. Why did God grant me this wish, when It will only bring pain and heartache in the end? What lessons were being taught?

Maybe I would never figure that out.

My phone went off, and I picked it up, knowing it was Tae.

'Hey beautiful, is Kookie with you? Jin is worried because he hasn't come home yet, and I thought maybe he had stayed behind to talk to you. Jimin told me every one of the guys knows about your wish, and I know Kook well enough to know he will have questions for you, and he won't be shy about asking them either.'

It should have surprised me at least a little that these guys seemed to know each other so well. But it didn't. We'd all been led to believe that they were as close as they seemed, as close as they let army see, and they really were. There was nothing fake about any of these boys. It made my heart fill with pride to know that, to know that what we all see is real, genuine.

I also wasn't surprised to hear that they all knew. It was a relief though. I felt like I didn't have to hide how I was feeling from any of them now.  

I thought for minute what to say, typed my reply, and hit send.

'He was, and yes, he did have questions. But I think he was satisfied with my answers. He said he was going for a walk before he went home. I'm sure he'll be there soon. Please get some rest."

It was only seconds before I received a reply from him.

'I could rest better if you were here with me, but I will try. Sleep well, love. See you tomorrow.'

I wish he was here with me. I miss him. But I wouldn't tell him that, only because he would end up either coming here, or trying to get me to come there. He needed to rest. I needed to rest, because I was tired. But my tired was mostly mental.