In Another Lifetime

I love him

Jungkook also looked like he'd cried. His cheeks were puffy, and his eyes were red. I gave him a small smile, and he attempted a smile back, but he ended up shaking his head and turning away,  heading inside the building.

~♡~

We had all gone inside, and though I knew everyone noticed both mine and Jungkook's faces, as we  received several glances, no one asked us any questions.

RM thanked everyone for their hard work today, and told us to go home and get a good nights sleep because tomorrow would be just like today. He'd glanced my way a few times, and looked concerned, but made no move towards me once he finished speaking.

I didn't wait around long, heading for the door within seconds. I just wanted to go home and sleep. I was about to step onto the elevator when Jimin grabbed my arm, stopping me. He pulled me into a room across from the box that was just waiting for me to step on, and closed the door. A few more seconds and I'd have made it.

"What happened?" He was looking at me intently.

"I don't wanna talk about it right now."

"Well neither does Tae and I can't find Kookie, so you're the only one left. I'm worried about all of you. Why does Jungkook look like he's been crying? And why were you crying?"

"Jimin...I...I don't know. I'm tired. I only have 14 days left. I want Tae to find me, because I love him, and I don't know how I'm going to live without him now that he has been a part of my life. But I'm not going to have a choice, so I don't want him to find me, because it'll hurt too much to have him in my life and only be able to be his friend. I don't want him to love me, because I don't want him to be hurt. But he said he loves me. He shouldn't love me Jimin. He shouldn't..."

The tears were rolling down my face again. Jimin stood there, dumbfounded, for maybe 10 seconds, and then he was hugging me. I let him hold me, and I sobbed, not even sure how I had any tears left.

He rubbed my back, and let me cry, not saying anything. Finally, I pulled back, and he held my shoulders, looking down to catch my eyes.

"I'm not sure I understand where this is coming from, or why Kookie was crying. But it's okay, I don't need to know right now. Just relax, everything's going to be okay."

There was a light knock on the door, and it opened, revealing Tae, who looked relieved at seeing me.

"Thank God, I didn't know where you went, and I was worried after what happened in the car."

Jimin raised a brow at that. "What did happen in the car? She's been crying, and I'm not sure I understand what's going on, but I'm trying to put the pieces together."

Tae sighed. "Can we go home, and I'll tell you? Delaney too, she's coming with me, I'm not leaving her alone tonight."

I didn't want to, yet I did. I was so confused. I wanted to stay as close to Taehyung as I could, but I was so afraid that it would just make this all worse somehow.

He must have seen the fear on my face, because he frowned, and took my hand, pulling me from Jimin's arms into his.

"Don't shut me out Delaney, please. I know this is going to be hard, but I can't bear for you to push me away. We'll figure this out. I promise."

I shook my head, pulling myself free.

"I can't right now. I can't...I need to go. I just...need to be alone. I made a mistake, wishing for what I did. I never should have made this wish."

I looked up, seeing Taehyungs eyes filled with pain, and it broke my heart. I was the worst human being on the face of this God forsaken planet. I had been so, so selfish. So self serving when I'd made that wish. I'd made it over, and over, and never once thought about anyone but myself, and what I wanted.