In Another Lifetime

Memories

The rest of the day went by in a blur, the ride to the venue, touch ups, waiting, the performance, the ride back to Big Hit, and finally RM telling everyone to enjoy a week off, but to keep their phones handy, because we were all on call in case something came up.

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I was glad the day was over, but also not glad at all. Tomorrow would be the start of having only 23 days left. And on top of that, I now had a week that I didn't have to go in to work at all. Taehyung had said he was spending every second with me. I honestly hoped that was going to start right now.

I looked for him, but didn't see him anywhere. I saw Suga, and asked him if Tae was in the showers.

"Uh, no, I haven't seen him since we got back. I assumed he left already."

A sadness took over that I didn't expect. He must have left. I couldn't really be upset. I'd done the same thing the night before, and left without saying goodbye because I was tired.

That was probably it, he had to be exhausted.

I sighed, seeing Mi Ok and Sang Hee heading for the door to leave.

"Bye, enjoy your week off!" Mi Ok called, waving to me.

I waved back, realizing that I was going to miss these girls this coming week. This job had become something I looked forward to each day. I liked coming to work. I liked everyone I worked with. It was so refreshing after what I was used to.

I may as well go home, and catch up on my sleep. Surprisingly, I didn't feel that tired. But I figured if I laid down and closed my eyes, I would eventually fall asleep.

I left the building, missing Taehyung and hoping he was okay. I hoped he was at the dorm, sleeping. He deserved all the rest he could get. They all did.

Once I got inside, I took my shoes off, and pulled my hair out of its bun, letting it fall loosely down around my shoulders. I looked in the fridge, finding a can of soda, and headed in to sit on the couch.

I decided to take my leggings off, just wanting to be comfortable in the oversized t-shirt, and I threw them in the basket inside the bathroom door on my way by.

I plopped on the couch, pulling my phone out of my bra, and looking at it, debating whether or not I should text Taehyung, just to make sure he was home and okay. I decided against it. I didn't want to wake him up if he was asleep. Which I hoped was the case.

I tossed my phone on the couch, and took a drink of the soda, my mind going in a million different directions. I thought of my life before the wish, of my husband and my kids, my house, my job...nothing about it excited me. I couldn't even muster up a smile. All I felt was sadness.

Then I thought of Tae, and I couldn't stop the smile that spread across my face. Tae, this job, the people I'd met at my job, BTS, it all made me smile.

Maybe it was because it was new, not something I had gotten used to. But then I thought of Greg and Julie. They were happy. They'd been married almost as long as Jason and I were, but they'd been a couple just as long, Greg having met Julie while hanging out with Jason and I shortly after we'd started dating, hitting it off with her right away, and asking her out not long after. They'd been together ever since, and just as happy now as they'd been at the start.

Why couldn't I stay here. What would be so terrible if I did. No one would miss me. But then I remembered...If I was allowed to stay here, my kids would cease to exist, having never been born.

I leaned my head back, closing my eyes. I guess instead of worrying about the fact that I only had just over 3 weeks left, I should worry about making the most of the time I have left. I had no idea how I was going to cope with all the memories once I was back to my boring reality, I only knew that it would be hard. But I wasn't going to waste anymore time. I was going to make memories that would overshadow any sadness that may creep into my world.