In Another Lifetime

Questions

I stared at him, my curiosity over whether or not the others knew now having no place in my thoughts. I wasn't  really surprised that he did, but I was surprised that he had no qualms about asking me such a question.

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I swallowed, and he shifted from one foot to the other, watching me closely.

"Jungkook, I would never shut him out...but honestly, I don't expect he will be able to find me. I'm pretty sure it's not supposed to work like that."

"But if he did...if he were somehow able to remember your name, would you break his heart a second time?"

I gulped, my heart thumping loudly in my chest. That hurt.

"I'm not trying to break his heart at all...I..."

I was at a loss for words, almost afraid to say anything for fear of upsetting him. He looked hurt, sad.

He sighed heavily. "I know you aren't trying to break his heart. But losing you is going to hurt him, so bad. I just wanna know if you think you'll still care for him, after..."

I felt a tear pool in the corner of my eye, and slide slowly down my cheek.

"Jungkook, I cared about Taehyung before I got here, before I ever met him. I...I love him, as wrong as it may be. I'm never going to stop. But I can't be a part of his life the same way I am now, for obvious reasons. If by some chance, he is able to remember my name, if he finds me, I will gladly be his friend, although I don't know to what extent he'd be able to have me as part of his life. You guys aren't allowed to be friends with just anybody, you know."

He finally smiled. "You aren't just anybody, Laney. Tae will find you, some day, somehow."

I smiled back at him. I didn't want to burst his bubble. It wouldn't hurt anything for him to believe that. But I refused to get my hopes up. I didn't know if I wanted him to find me.

TAEHYUNGS POV

I hurried out, looking for Jin but I didn't see him. I was down the elevator and in the lobby, and still there was no sign of him. Maybe he'd stopped upstairs to talk to someone else and I'd just missed him. I guess I'll have to wait till I see him at home.

I left the building, walking to the dorm and thinking about Delaney. It seemed I couldn't stop thinking about her. The feelings I was experiencing were like nothing I'd ever felt.

I sighed, determined to think of something I could do that would help me remember her name once she was gone, but I still hadn't come up with anything. I knew writing anything down would be useless, because it would be blank in the end. Same thing with saving anything to my phone. It would be gone.

I reached the dorm, and headed for my room, changing into a pair of sweats and a t-shirt, and flopping onto my bed, missing her so bad. I closed my eyes, thinking back to our week together. It had been perfect. Seeing her smile, hearing her laughter, having her hand in mine, It had made my heart happy.

The nights had been another story altogether. It didn't matter how many times I kissed her, it felt like the first time all over. Every second with her felt brand new. It didn't matter that we'd shared our bodies with each other already, because it was like I'd just seen her for the first time, and been blown away again. When I touched her, my heart felt like it was beating so fast it would be undetectable, because she was the most exquisite thing I'd ever touched. Watching her undress was mesmerizing, every time. Loving her was...earth shattering.

I felt tears burning behind my eyelids. This was so fucking unfair. I wasn't mad that she had made her wish. I wasn't mad that she was here, and that it was me she needed. I really wasn't even mad that she only had 30 days. It was a wish, that's how these things worked. It couldn't be forever, no matter how much I wanted it to.