Frozen Fire

Chapter 8

Chapter 8

Fatigue

Pagkaalis ko ng cafeteria ay agad akong sumakay sa aking sasakyan at dumiretso na upang makaalis doon. Hindi ko na nahintay sila Madolle. Kaya na nila ang mga sarili nila, malaki na sila.

I drove out of the school as fast as I could. Nagpaikot-ikot nalang ako sa siyudad gamit ang sasakyan.

I couldn't even go to my sanctuary knowing that someone knows about that place. It wasn't as secretive and calming as before.

I don't know how Phoenix got a hold of that video. I still remember that taunting day.

Noong freshman ako sa highschool ay isinali ako ng aking mga kaklase sa talent contest. The kids back in my previous school were fucked up. They didn't care how you felt. Kapag alam nilang kaya ka nilang gaguhin ay gagaguhin ka talaga nila.

I didn't like their guts kaya naman ay wala akong naging kaibigan ni isa sa kanila.

Nobody wants to talk to me. It was like I was invisible to them ngunit nagbago iyon nang mapansin ako ng crush ng bayan sa school na iyon.

I was shy, a little awkward, and nerdy back then but a certain guy approached me. Sophomore siya noon.

Everyone's eyes were on us when he approached me in the middle of the quadrangle. He was smiling at me while scrunching his dark brown fluffy hair and I was dazed.

He may be my first crush or maybe he just made me wish for a friend dahil siya lang naman ang nagpakita ng interes sa akin. Madalas ay hindi ako pinapansin ng mga tao. Mga kaklase ko lang ang nakakakilala sa akin at madalas ay pinagtatawanan pa nila ako sa pagiging iba ko sa kanila.

The boy was different. He never judged me. Hindi niya pinamukha sa akin na iba ako. Pero dahil sa pinakita niyang interes sa akin ay mas lalong nagalit ang mga kaklase ko. Specifically, ang girls.

They bullied me. Hard.

That video was one of the tactics they used in bullying me. They know how I hate the spotlight.

They volunteered me to be the representative of our class in a talent contest. They didn't know I could sing, what they know is that they need me to be humiliated. I sighed.

That is one of the reasons why si Madolle at Elle lang ang kaibigan ko at ever since I first got into college, I just kept more to myself. Not that I was not like this before pero mas lalo lang akong nawalan ng gana sa ibang tao.

I closed my eyes for a moment and opened it again.

Hindi ata magandang ideya ang magdrive ng galit at lutang.

Bigla akong napapreno nang may isang babae na biglaan nalang tumawid. Hindi iyon pedestrian lane kung kaya't hindi ko ito napansin agad.

I was wide eyed when I saw her fell. I immediately opened my car and went outside. There were people whispering to themselves. I stared at the body in front of me.

Shit.

I ran to the girl and tried to wake her up. She's not wounded. My car didn't even hit her. I stepped on the brakes fast enough. Nakahinga naman ako ng maluwag ng mapagtanto iyon.

"Tulong!" sigaw ko. I tried waking up the girl but to no avail, hindi pa rin ito nagising but I'm sure as hell that I didn't hit her. Napatingin naman sa akin ang mga taong nakapaligid. They continued whispering and that made me want to run them over with my car. Ano bang hindi nila naiintindihan sa tulong?!