It Should Have Been Us (Completed)

Epilogue

""Tita. Please, at least let me talk to her. Perhaps, she'll change her mind once she gets to see me. I'm begging you. Please. Please let me talk to my girlfriend. Sinubukan ko po iyong hiniling niyang maghiwalay na kami, pero fuck, ilang araw pa lamang po, halos mamatay na ako. Thinking she might fall in love with someone else makes me go crazy. Parang awa ninyo na."

Pagmamakaawa ko sa mga magulang niya, ilang linggo pa lamang noong maghiwalay kami. I planned to follow her desire of wanting me to go back in the Philippines pero noong iisipin ko palang na hindi ko na siya makakasama ay halos magwala na ang aking sistema.

"I am so sorry hijo. But our daughter does not want to see you anymore. She also needs to focus in her med.school. You know how important that is for her, right? I hope you understand and respect her choice. Isa pa, bata pa kayong dalawa, marami pa ang puwedeng mangyari. Give her the chance to enjoy her life. Kung para kayo sa isa't isa, balang araw, gagawa mismo ang diyos para magkabalikan kayong dalawa, pero sa ngayon, you're both better off with each other. Your relationship with her is toxic. Nakalimutan mo ang mga pangarap mo para lamang makasama siya dito. She's not healthy for you too, and I am sorry for letting her do this to you, hijo. She has a lot of things to deal with herself, first. Hindi niya pa kayang hawakan ng maayos ang relasyon ninyo. She's all into fantasies. Akala niya puro saya lang. She can't handle her emotions just yet. At natatakot akong baka kung ipinagpatuloy ninyo itong dalawa, you'll both end up hating each other. I know you're patient, always when it comes to her, but you can't hold on to that once she tells you she's no longer happy with you. I know my daughter too well, kapag ayaw na niya, hahanap siya ng mga bagay at hihilingin iyon sa iyo kahit pa alam niyang napakaimposible. I remember when she asked her dad to plant an apple tree so she won't have to ask one of her nannies to buy her one in the supermarket whenever she's craving. And we both know, apples can't live in the Philippines because of the temperature. Sana maintindihan mo kami. Bilang magulang, ayaw kong nakikita siyang nasasaktan. Pero hindi ko din maaatim na unti unti niyang naiwawala niya ang sarili dahil sa sobrang pagmamahal niya sa iyo. We want you for her, Saint. But at this moment, you both need to grow seperately."

Namula lalo ang aking mga mata at unti unting tumulo ang kanina ko pang pinipigilang luha.

"Just.just let me see her once more. I promise.. babalik na ako sa Pilipinas pagkatapos neto."

Nagkatinginan sila ni tito Troy pagkarinig ng binitawang kong pangako. They hesitated at first pero noong unti unti akong lumuhod ay hindi na nila napigilang maawa. So they let me in.

"I missed you so much. Ayaw mo na ba talaga sa akin? Hindi mo na ba kayang kumapit? Mas maganda ba talagang maghiwalay na tayo? Tangina. Iniisip ko pa lang na babalik na ako sa Pilipinas ng wala ka, halos ikamatay ko na. I've worked so hard for this relationship, only to end up like this, fuck. I can make a good living here, I can earn money and work overtime in any kinds of job, only if my father can let me fucking do it. Tangina, he's holding me on the neck just because he wants me to take over that fucking company. Baby, I don't give a fuck about anything. Mawala na sa akin lahat, huwag lang ikaw. Kaya sabihin mo lang, isang sabi mo lang.....na manatili ako dito....susundin ko. Give me the chance to prove it. Ako ang magpapaaral sa iyo. Iyong mga sinabi mo sa akin noong pinaalis mo ako dito, kalimutan na natin, sabihin mo lang na gusto mo pa ako dito...sabihin mo lang na bumalik ako sa iyo, parang awa mo na. Mahal na mahal kita, Elisha."

Yakap ko siya mula sa kanyang likuran.

"Papaano ka nakapasok dito?"

Malamig niyang tanong na para bang hindi talaga siya totoong nasasaktan. But I knew her well. I know my baby so damn well. So stop faking it, Elisha. Come on baby. Give in to me.