◇ Out in the open ◇

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Spoiler; emo hours. Get ya tissues, or don't it probs won't make you cry. Wanted to try something different.

WARNINGS: Mentions of abuse, Chaehyun's past, the kidnapping, mental health and alcohol abuse.

I'm slowly running out of ideas so send me some if you have any you want to see


Alone in the hotel room, a sigh passed through Chaehyun's parted lips. He set up the camera before walking back towards his seat, which he pulled closer. With the baggy black shirt hung loosely over his body with the grey hoodie unzipped and hood over his head, he ran a hand through his messy hair. He then proceeded to run his hands down to his bare face and let out several groans and sighs before finally dropping his hands and staring directly at the camera.

"Hi guys. I uh, I have a few things to get off my chest. This isn't going to be me asking questions or answering them, I'm just gonna open up to you guys because I've been struggling lately and it's not fair for you to go on believing that I'm absolutely okay when I'm not. If you don't wanna hear this then that's okay, I completely understand just click away and I will try get on here tomorrow with a different type of live for you. If you are gonna click off then just know I love you and hope you are warm and safe."

Chaehyun paused, eyes grazing over the responses loading in. Many were worried, many were responding with their love and most were telling him that they were there to listen to him. And that meant a lot to him.

"You guys know a lot about me. You know some of my past, you know I've been through a tough time, you know my mental health isn't exactly in its best state. So, it's only fair of you to know where I'm at right now – I won't share everything, there's still some things I need to mend and figure out, but I'm getting there and I hope one day I can share that side of things with you."

He grabbed the water bottle that was next to his chair, twisting the cap so it came off in his hand, he allowed the cold, fresh liquid to slide down his throat causing him to shiver. He then tightened the cap back around the lid and held the water bottle in his hands.

Chaehyun had a habit of fiddling with things whilst he explained things or whilst he was simply emotional, it was something that comforted him in a way as it took most of his attention off of that situation and onto the cap, making it easier for him to hold back tears if he needed to.

Quite quickly the fans caught onto this and immediately flooded the chat with comments asking everybody to be respectful and to allow him to open up, they began asking for others not to make a fuss if he starts to cry as it overwhelms him, that part shocked Chaehyun. How considerate.

"My parents were bad people, let's start with that. I mean, my mother kidnapped me and left me for dead, to put it in the nicest way I can. Though, nothing can ever make that sound nice. My Father, he let her—how do I say this without giving too much detail. I don't wanna upset anyone," Chaehyun ran his hand over his face as he tried to think of a word. His brain was fired, like a web of knots in the tangled up into one mess. "Uh—ah." He sighed.

"I guess you can say she liked to take things to a physical level with me and my siblings – well, I often let her get her anger out on me more than them as the oldest, I felt like it was my responsibility to protect them and I don't regret that one bit. I'd much rather die than stand around and watch my siblings go through that, so I stepped in and let her use me instead - I'm trying not to give away too much detail because I know there's kids watching this and I don't really want them to hear stuff like this. So, if I'm not making sense then I apologise."

Chaehyun turned to look down at the bottle, feeling his heart start to hurt as the memories gushed through his brain like a blustery wind. His eyes glossed over, but he forced himself not to cry. Swallowing hard, he began to speak again but his voice was much weaker and it was evident he was emotional.

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