2nd Chances // Park Jihoon FF

030

Seoyoon's POV

Its been exactly 3 days since my last encounter with Jihoon. We'd end up seeing eachother at some time but I would usually just greet him and thats about it. It has also been 3 days since I last felt Jinyoung's love. I've been depressed for the past days, He wouldnt talk to me properly and would always be off mood around me. We dont go out for dinners after shifts anymore. He would always complain about being tired and would just force himself home. I didnt understand why he was being like that and my mind is about to blow. Im about to go crazy and he doesnt even notice it. He even didnt go to work today. I've been overthinking lately, constantly telling myself that maybe he didnt love me anymore. Which obviously doesnt help at all but I couldnt help but to think that way. He was being so cold and distant while im over here, wondering what went wrong.
What did I do for him to be this upset with me?
Why wouldnt he tell me how he feels?
Does he not trust me enough to tell me?
Does he not love me anymore?

Goddammit Bae Jinyoung!

All these thoughts made my head spin and I was again feeling the same headache I did way back before. Tears were urging to fall but I tried my bestest to hold them back. Besides, I dont think crying would even do any difference.

"Hey girl." Hyunjae cheerfully greeted. Well atleast someone is having a good time.

"Hey" I forced a smile.

"You hungry? Let's eat out. Chef is on a day off today so I dont wanna eat here." She whined. I rolled my eyes and just went along with her since I couldnt settle for anything that could further ruin my mood.

"Where's Jinyoung?" She asked, probably surprised that we're not together.

"Dont know" I bluntly replied.

"Are you guys okay? You guys have been less clingy to eachother the past days. Is something wrong?" She asked concerned.

Is there?
I dont even know, myself. I dont know because he wont fucking tell me whats wrong. He wont tell me what I did wrong. He wasn't willing to fix whatever the hell is going wrong in our relationship. Instead, he avoids all the possible solution we could think of just to make things right for us again.

Why the hell is he doing this to me, fucking hell!

"Oh Seoyoon.." Hyunjae pittied and pulled me into an embrace. I didnt even realize that I was already in tears until she pulled me into a hug finally allowing me to let out everything.

"I dont know whats wrong Jae. He wont talk to me, he's gotten so cold towards me and I dont know what to do. I dont want to lose him but I feel like im slowly starting to" I sobbed into her shoulders.

There's nothing else in this world that scares me than losing Jinyoung. I loved Jinyoung. I love Jinyoung. He was one of the best thing that happened to me. He was the reason to why I kept going despite the things that happened to me in the past, from losing all of my memories to slowly finding out more and more about myself. He was there to help me and I got so attached to him that I no longer want to cut loose. I just wished he could see how much he means to me because to me he was the world. He was everything I could live for.

"Shh..its okay Seoyoon..please dont cry.." Hyungjae weakly said. I could sense the pain in her voice just by seeing me suffer this much.

"I love him." I continuously cried.

"I know you do.." she comforted. I pulled away from her, having my hands up to my face to cover it. I looked horrible. I didnt want anyone else to see me this way considering how we're literally in public.