2nd Chances // Park Jihoon FF

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Seoyoon's POV

After a few weeks of visiting my mom back and forth, I finally decided to move out to live with her by the end of the month.
And after days of preparing, it was finally time to move in with my mother.
I sat on my bed one last time and recalled all the fun nights I spent in this room and house.
I knew it hurted my father to see me go after trying hard to take care of me.
I just thought I needed time away and lower down the pain I was feeling towards everyone in this house.
I love every single one of them and that is why im doing this.

"Are you all ready?" My mom, who took a lot of courage to set foot in this place, asked.
It wont be easy to get her to calm down if ever she saw my dad.
Which is why we really chose a day where dad was out busy, so she could help me pack the last few things I owned.

"I am." I smiled to her and finally stood up from my bed.
I walked out the room with her only to be greeted by mo step-brother, Guan lin.
The only person I couldnt bare to see the most was Guan Lin.
I wasnt angry at him, but my heart hurted so badly for him.
The person who died as me..
Was his mother.

"You'll still visit me..right?" He sadly smiled.

"I will." I cried and pulled him into an embrace.

"Im sorry for everything" I whispered to him.
He hugged me back tightly and cried along with me.

"I'll miss you"
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"Mom, there's a place I would like to go to." I told my mom as we came to a stop infront of our house.

"Would you like me to come with you?" She asked.

"Its okay mom. I can handle myself." I smiled back to her.

"Okay then. Take the driver with you." She smiled to the driver.
I simply nodded and kissed her goodbye before she exited the car.

"Where to ma'am?" The driver asked.

***

"I'll be taking a while, you can go for now. I'll just take a cab home." I smiled to the driver.
He simply gave me a nod and left as soon.

I made my way to inside the building and headed to my desired floor.
Today, after a month of hiding and not saying a word to anyone, I decided to visit Jinyoung.
It's been awhile since I last saw him.
I wanted to take care of him and pay him a visit often.
But how can I take care of him in this condition?
I was a mess.
But now that im starting take things a little more lightly and still getting better day by day, I finally was in the right state of mind to show myself to him.
I wouldnt want him to see me in a depressed condition.

"Mr.Bae" I greeted his father.

"Oh. Seoyoon." He said surprised.

"Its been awhile.." he smiled to me and gave me a hug.

"Im sorry for just showing up now." I sincerely apologized to him.

"How's Jinyoung?" I asked, taking a peek through the windor door.

"He's been stable so far but still no process in getting better." He sadly informed.

"Can I see him?" I asked him.

He simply nodded and knocked on Jinyoung's door.
I heared him say come in in a weak tone.
I felt nervous to face him after almost a month of not seeing him.

"You have a visitor." Mr.Bae informed to him.
I revealed myself shortly.
He gave me a weak smile as Mr.Bae closed the door behind me to give both of us some private time.

"Hey.." I smiled to him.
He's gotten so much skinnier since the last time.
He looked so weak.

"Hi" he smiled back.

"How have you been doing?" I asked as I near him and sat on the chair beside his bed.
I placed down the fruits and flowers that I bought on the way here, on the table infront of me.

"Dont worry about me. I've been well." He weakly smiled.

"Im guessing you were busy this whole time for not coming by often." He chuckled.
I felt bad realizing that he was somehow expecting me to come visit hin from time to time.

"Im sorry..I was-"

"I know." He said placing a hand on my hand.

"Jihoon told me." He smiled at me.
Jihoon.
I haven't heared of his name for a long time.
The last time I saw was the last time I ever talked to him.

"He told me everything." He added.

"Then I guess I dont have to really say anythhing right?" I replied trying to end the subject about him.
I didnt wanna talk about Jihoon.
I was finally beginning to feel a little more better.
Thinking or talking about him will not help me forget.

"But he does." Jinyoung inoccently smiled.

"Jinyoung.."

"Seoyoon listen to him." He tried to console.
I looked away from him but he grabbed my hand softly.
I was confused at why he was trying so hard to fix everything Jihoon had broken down.

"Did he beg you to say all this?" I sighed.

"No he didnt." He simply replied.

"Then I dont understand why you have to say all that. I really dont wanna talk about Jihoon." I said being careful with my tone.
I was annoyed, but I didnt want to let it out on Jinyoung.

"Im just saying you should listen to him, so you could understand better." He argued.

"What do you even know about what's going on?" I angrily asked.
I didnt mean to come off angrily at him.
I came here to have a peace of mind not to cause another reason to be sad and stressed.
Im just so irritated that he's being so nosy about the things he can never understand.

"Everything." He firmly said.

"Since when did you get close with Jihoon anyway??" I asked annoyed.

"Since the day I asked him to promise me that he'd take care of you." He almost yelled.
I was in no condition to argue or listen or even understand him.
I was so tired of fighting with myself and everyone else.

"Why do I feel like im the one at fault here?" I asked aloud as I feel my eyes heating up.

"Is it my fault I got hurt and cant seem to forgive?" I added.

"Im allowed to feel hurt too and im allowed to choose whether or not I want to listen to anyone." I asserted.
I stood up from my seat while wiping my tears away.
I thought he'd be the one to understand me.
I guess I thought wrong.
I attempted to walk away when suddenly the person I never wanted to ever see showed up at the front door.

"Im sorry i'll come back later." He excused.

"No, you came just at the right time. I was just about to leave."