2nd Chances // Park Jihoon FF

051

"Hyung, are you even allowed to be here?" I asked Jimin hyung, sort of surprised that he's taking us to a club.
I mean, he is a huge star after all, wouldn't it be risky for him to be seen in such places?

"Im a married man and i'm on a break from the promotions. I can do whatever I want." He chuckled.
I simply gave him a nod and headed inside the club that he brought us to.

"Drinks on me tonight." He yelled out due to the loud music.
We all began heading to the bar area and got ourselves a drink.
Since we weren't in the mood to party crazily just yet, we all just stood there and talked amongst ourselves.

"Make sure to enjoy tonight, don't worry about anything else." Jimin Hyung loudly said.
I don't really know whether I wanted to enjoy or just drink all the pain out.
It was either one and it made me drink a lot more than I should have.

***

"Go Jimin go Jimin go Jimin." Everyone cheered as Jimin Hyung began taking over the dance floor with his sick dance moves.

"Get in there Woojin-ah!" I yelled out pushing Woojin to the dance floor along with Jimin Hyung.
He began feeling the music as Jimin Hyung stood aside to finally give him the spotlight.

"Eyyyyyyyyyyyy!!!" We all excitedly cheered as he began dancing to every beat of the song.
That's right, we're the Park brothers.

"Your turn!" Minhyun hyung told me and pushed me this time.
I didn't care about anything else and began dancing to the music.
I was known to be the best at popping so I might as well show that here right now, right?

"Jihoon! Jihoon! Jihoon!" Everyone cheered me on as they watch me.
Seconds later, the rest of the boys joined me on the dance floor.

The next thing I knew, we went back to our table which we managed to move to an hour before, and began our second round of drinking.

That's basically how the whole night ended up.

Me forgetting, enjoying and drinking my sorrows out.

And it felt fucking great.

******

"Damn, my head." I groaned as I sat up from my bed.
I was shocked after seeing Minhyun hyung, Daniel Hyung and Seongwu hyung sleeping on the floor.

Damn, we were that drunk last night?

"Hyung." I whispered as I shook Daniel hyung's body with my feet.

"Mm?" He said, still asleep.

"Goodmorning boys!" Jimin Hyung loudly said, barging in our room suddenly.

After last night, he's still that energetic?
Who is he?

"Breakfast is ready, come on." He said, waking everyone up.

"Stop." Seongwoon hyung groaned.

"Get up hyung." Jimin hyung laughed.
Eventually everyone got up and headed downstairs to start our breakfast.

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"Last night was crazy." Jimin Hyung laughed.

"Tell me about it, freaking Woojin puked on my shoes!" Jaehwan hyung whined, Making us laugh.

"Wait so you guys didn't go home?" I asked, surprised.

I didn't realize how kuch we drank that night to end up all in one house, our house.

"You think we were in the right condition to remember where we lived?" Seongwu hyung asked with his mouth full.

"You were drunk to that extent?" I laughed throwing a tissue at him and shaking my head.

"Oh rather than drunk, you were actually wasted." Daehwi said, rolling his eyes.
I guess he was the only one who didn't drink last night considering how he really isn't a fan of drinking at all.

"who drove us home?" Jimin Hyung asked.

"I did." Daehwi answered, raising his hand up, Jimin Hyung just mouthed 'oh' and nodded his head.

"You're welcome." He chuckled.

"Well you had a great time last night" Minhyun Hyung laughed, looking at me.

"I know. It's crazy." I smiled, shocked myself.

after everything I went through yesterday, meeting the love of my life and watching her walk away from me, I didn't think i'd still have the time to have fun and have a good time.
But now that i'm sober and back to normal, my heart remembered every pain I felt yesterday and that's when it started hitting me again.

This is how we know that happiness is temporary.

because once you wake up to another day, everything goes back to the way it is.

"Wanna have coffee with me in the balcony?" Jimin Hyung quietly asked me.
I nodded my head yes and took my coffee with me before heading to the balcony with Jimin Hyung.

-

"How are you feeling?" He asked, taking a sip of his coffee.

"What do you think Hyung?" I weakly smiled to him.

"Everything is a mess right now." I added.

"I don't think i'll be okay ever." I sadly smiled.

"That's impossible. every pain has an end Jihoon." he comforted.

"It's okay to hurt, but it's not okay to not stand back up after falling." he continue to speak.

"She's hurting that's why you're hurting. That's only because the wound in her heart is still fresh. but that doesn't mean she would never heal."

"She will forgive you one day. why? because thats the only way to fix what's broken." He smiled.

"But i'm not saying that she'll go back to you. I don't want to keep your hopes up." he quickly stated.

"I'm Just saying that she will forgive you to fix herself and possibly you too. To cut off everything that started the pain, to let go and start anew, it could be with or without you." he finally finished off and gave me a pat on the shoulders.

These words were what I needed to hear the most.
It wasn't something to cheer me up but it was something to open my eyes.
To realise and accept that I won't be okay now, but doesn't mean I won't be able to walk on my own feet.

I'm not saying that I will get over Seoyoon someday, no.
That's never gonna be my intention.

but maybe, I can give myself a chance to accept that i'd have to live without having her as someone I would call mine.

It hurts to even just think about it.

But I have to prepare myself, that's the only way to lessen the pain.

"Thank you Hyung." I smiled, tears were urging to fall but I held it back.
I don't want to show Hyung that his brother was weak.
I want to be strong for myself and my brothers. I've been weak for so long, chasing and begging.
I wanted to make it up for myself and for the people who had to feel hurt because of me.

I loved Seoyoon for so long, but seeing her so hurt because of me.

I should now let go of her..