2nd Chances // Park Jihoon FF

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I finally headed to where Jinyoung was and carefully crept up behind him.
I still felt awkward having to talk to him like nothing happened.
But I knew that if I kept being like this. Nothing will ever happen.
I came here to talk to him.
To catch up and apologise for the loss time.

"So this is what you do at night? water plants?" I joked as I grabbed the other hose and started watering the plants like him.

"Weird, right?" He chuckled.

"A little bit, but unique. I've never heard of anyone who water their plants at night." I laughed finally making eye contact with him.
If I had to be honest, not thinking about the awkwardness between the two of us definitely helps. It's just that, after the laugh we both exchanged, I literally didn't know what else to say to him.

"How are you?" He asked, thankfully he started the conversation.
I would never have thought of that.

"I'm great now. what about you? Are you well?" I seemed to realise he gained quite a bit of weight comparing to the last time I saw him.
That must be a good sign right?

"I'm still alive. That's a good enough answer, right?" He joked.

"I guess." Speaking of awkward.
I don't think I've ever been this awkward with anyone before.
Especially to Jinyoung.
Never had I ever imagines that I would run out of things to say to him.

"It feels weird, doesn't it?" He asked, turning his hose off as all the plants were finally watered.
I did the same.
I didn't really think I was much of a help anyway.

"A little." I shrugged and fiddled with my hands as we both stood awkwardly beside each other.

"You're too quiet. I'm starting to really get upset." He pouted this time.
I looked up to him and saw his smile.
The smile that I missed and yet regretted not seeing any sooner.

"I'm sorry. I just-I don't really know where to start." I finally admitted.

"Start what?" He asked, confused.

" Apologising. For not being there with you. For walking out on you last time." I said with full regret.

"What's there to apologise about? I'm not even angry or disappointed or whatever it is you think I am." He remarked followed by a small chuckle.
He walked closer to me and placed both hands on my shoulder.
I looked up to him and saw the sincerity in his eyes.
He really was telling the truth.

"You promise you aren't?" I asked, sadly.

"Okay, maybe a little but-"

"See?" I interrupted him and placed a hand on my forehead.

"Buuut.." He trailed off, grabbing my chin and making me face him.

"But I completely understood why you couldn't go and see me." He chuckled and reassured.

"You do?"

"Of course I do." He answered, squishing my face.

"Look." He sighed, letting go of my face finally.

"I know what you went through isn't easy. If there's anyone who should be apologising for not being there, it should be me." He stated, finally losing the smile he's had on the whole time.

"No, you were sick Jinyoung. It's not your fault at all." I tried to lift his mood up again.

"Maybe that's why I should apologise. For being sick." He sadly smiled.

I didn't ever think ever that Jinyoung would come to the day he would apologise for being sick.
It's not like he wanted to be sick.
No one wanted this.
No one wishes to be sick.

"You shouldn't."

"But you're here now. This just proves that no matter what happens between us two, we'd always come back to each other." He smiled.

"as Best Friends." He added.
I looked at him apologetically.

"Jinyoung I-"

"I know you love him, Seoyoon. I'm okay with that." He smiled.
His smile tells me that it really was okay for him.
but that didn't stop me from feeling bad.
I didn't want to tell him that he was wrong.
because he wasn't.
I love him..
but not the same way as I did before.
and for that, I really am sorry.

"And I know how much he loves you too." He chuckled after.

"It's really you two who should be together." Jinyoung didn't look sad like he said.
He looked rather, happy.
and that thought alone, makes me so sad.
I never wanted to see him like this.
I know he was happy but I know there's a part of him that is hurting but he doesn't wanna show it because he knew damn well that I would have such a hard time.
I loved how considerate Jinyoung is but I still feel so broken hearted to have him let go of someone he loved..
which is me.

"Thank you." I finally pulled him into an embrace and stayed like that for awhile.
I missed him.
I missed having him as my comfort.
He has always been the one who helps me face all the hardships.
Not being able to have him by my side during my darkest days was hard.
Now that i'm better, I became even better to have him here with me now.

Jihoon's POV

"Finally, you two are okay." Mr.Bae laughed as he washed the dishes while I polish them.

"It took quite a while but it was all worth it." I chuckled back.
Mr.Bae became my second father after I visited Jinyoung a lot.
Jinyoung and I became closer ever since I found out about his condition considering the bad blood I had with him before.
Both of them are good mens and I really do have big respect for the two of them.
They were like family to me.

"I hope you use your chance wisely. You won't be lucky enough to get a third one." He advised, looking over the window where both Jinyoung and Seoyoon could be seen clearly.
I looked at her as both Jinyoung and her water the plants.
Of course, I still felt jealous knowing that Seoyoon was once crazy in love with Jinyoung.
But now, nothing makes me more happier than to see her happy.

"I see why Jinyoung went crazy for her." He shook his head.

"She's a wise girl. She knows what she needs to get done in order to cope up with herself." He spoke up.

"It's a little sad that my son lost a girl like her." My gaze went away from the two of them and diverted back to Mr.Bae who had a regretful look on his face.

"He was really happy with her." Seoyoon was too.
She was really happy.
It hurts me to even think about it but I won't be able to deny that she really did loved him.

"But i'm not saying this so that you'd give up on her and let her and my son be." He suddenly said, looking back at me.
I was a little taken aback from what he said but indeed, that is what I felt like he was trying to do.

"I'm saying this so that you won't put my son's decision to let her go, into waste." He placed a hand on my shoulder.

"Love her if you're gonna love her. That's the only way you can keep her forever." He smiled and patted my back.
I smile formed on my lips hearing it come from someone who has been in love with his wife despite the unfortunate circumstance.
But it really was heart warming to see him in love with the person he loved 30 years ago.

"Thank you." I smiled to him.
He simply gave me a nod and proceeded to washing the last piece of plate.