2nd Chances // Park Jihoon FF

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Jihoon's POV

"Are you gonna lie about his condition now?" I smapped at Minhyun hyung who obviously knows something but doesnt wanna say anything.

"What..-fine..Jinyoung only wanted to hide it for the best." He said.

"Hide what?"

"He has a brain tumor." He confessed. I was lost for words after hearing the most shocking news about Jinyoung's condition.

"I hope you respect Jinyoung's decision and dont try to ruin this for him." He added and walked away from me.

I disliked him so much but this isnt something Im going to be happy about. I just cant help but worry about Seoyoon if ever she found out about this. How brokenhearted she'll get if she recieved the news.
It's already hard enough to know that she's completely clueless about it.
For how long will Seoyoon be lied to?
Funny of me to say that considering that I,too, is hiding something from her.

"Jihoon?" I heared a weak voice call out to me.

I turned to see Seoyoon, looking really weak and her eyes were swollen from crying.

"Yeah? Is there anything you need?" I kindly smiled.

"I just have to do something really quick. Can you stay with Jinyoung for a bit?" She weakly smiled.

As much as I wanted to ask her what it was that she had to do. I realized maybe she was too tired and weak to even give time to explain so I just nodded my head and did as she say.
I walked back to Jinyoung's room and sat quietly beside him.
I felt bad.
He didnt deserve this.
I dont understand why he wants to keep this secret from Seoyoon.
A moment later, I could finally hear Jinyoung mumbling.
I looked at him and I saw that his eyes were fluttering open.

"Jihoon?" He spoke, as soon as he saw me.

"Hey." I awkwardly smiled.

"Where's Seoyoon?" He asked.

"She uh did something. Dont worry she'll be back soon." I reassured him.

Since we both had a heated conversation not too long ago, the rooms atmosphere wasnt at its best.

"How are you feeling?" I asked, not looking at him.

"Do you know anything?" He weakly asked.

"I-yes" I simply answered.

"Does she know?.." he nervously asked.

"No, dont worry." I gave him a reassured smile and he gave me a relieved look.
It still annoyed me at how he was so comfortable keeping this from Seoyoon.

"I guess now that you know I cant help it." He sighed.

"Cant help what?"

"To have her." He simply replied.

To have her?..

"What-"

"The doctor said I needed proper treatment since im at a very bad condition. I have to move to a different hospital, far away from her." He sadly smiled.

"I dont want her to know about my condition, so I have no choice but to just let her go." He finished off. Looking at me softly.

"I know you'd take better care of her Jihoon." He smiled, almost tearing up but tried his best to hold it in.

He's already accepting defeat by letting Seoyoon go but somehow..
It didnt feel right.
I didnt feel right.
I wanted Seoyoon so much.
But I didnt want to have her this way.
It sucks now that im actually thinking about it so much.

"Dont. You'll get better." I painfully smiled.

"I dont know boss. Looks like i'd have to resign from you too." He weakly chuckled.

Despite the bad vibes we had.
Today, it didnt feel like that.
I guess the reason he was acting up on me was because he didnt want to show that he was in pain, physically.
He wanted to look intimidating and strong for the person he loved.
But now that someone knows his weakness, it was so easy for him to give up.
I thought that was wrong no matter how much I wanted to keep Seoyoon all to myself.
If Seoyoon losses Jinyoung without knowing anything..
She'd have to go through what I had to go through when I thought she was gone.

"You're awake." Seoyoon's voice rang through the room.

Both Jinyoung and I looked over to Seoyoon who had plastic bags in her hand filled with many snacks. Which probably isnt gonna be good for Jinyoung's health.
She wouldnt know that though.

"I bought your favourite snacks. Your doctor said you were overly exhausted so I thought maybe these would fill your fuel up." She smiled.

She was so clueless and hopeful.
I could tell Jinyoung felt awful for having to hide this from her.
But he didnt have a choice.

"Great im hungry." I said and started searching through the plastic bags.

"No, these are for Jinyoung only" she said and snatched the chip that I was holding.

"Seoyoon-ah. Its okay, you can give him some. Besides, there's a lot." Jinyoung chuckled.
I smirked at Seoyoon and gave Jinyoung a thumbs up.

"Suddenly you guys are best buddies?" She asked confusedly giving both Jinyoung and I a look.
Jinyoung and I didnt say a word and instead exchange eachother with a smile.
Now that I knew exactly the reason as to why he acted that way to me.
It no longer became a big deal to me.
All I want now is for him to get better.

-

I finally said goodbye to Jinyoung after spending almost the whole day with the two of them.
For a short period of time, Jinyoung and I got a little closer to eachother.
Now that I know that I was the only one besides Minhyun Hyung and his father, who knew about his condition.
He even insisted that Seoyoon should go along since his father would be the one to take over this time.
Something that left Seoyoon confused considering how just a day ago he didnt like her being an inch close to me.

"Its amazing how you guys got so close even after everything." She smiled in disbelief as we walked along the hallways of the hospital.

"What can I say, im a good boss thats why." I joked.

She playfully punched my arms and chuckled.

"Im really happy that you guys are finally okay." She smiled.

"I just feel like right now I dont have to stress about anything." She added.

"Stress? What stressed you out?"

"You know, he didnt like seeing me around you and that stressed me out because you're my friend. I was mad at you yes, but its impossible to hold grudges for a long time." She explained as we reach the very fron entrance.

"Besides, you're..special to me." She added. I looked at her and noticed that she wasnt looking at me when she said that, infact, her face turned a little red. I found it adorable.

"I mean, as a friend. You're a special friend to me." She quickly added.
All I did was nodded and smiled.
It was enough for me to know that I was special to her even if it was just as a friend.

I honestly dont understand how I had the change of heart for her.
I love her but at the same time..
I didnt want her to leave Jinyoung's side.
Maybe I was the one accepting defeat now,
I mean, I have always been losing.