2nd Chances // Park Jihoon FF

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Seoyoon's POV

"Was" he spoke with his head low.
I sat there silently, listening to his explanation.
Which by the way, I didnt understand why he had to.
But as he already did, I became more curious.

"But life didnt turn out how I wanted it to be." He continued.

"I made a mistake..I ended up hurting her."

"She eventually left..but came back.."

"Only to find out she was inlove with someone else.." he painfully spoke.
I felt bad seeing him hurt like this.
Although he wasnt crying, you could see the pain and regret in his eyes.
This was the weakest side of him that I've ever seen.
Apart of me was hurting too.
For a reason that I dont understand.

"I wanted to make things right for the two of us but it was too late."

"I want to tell her im sorry with every chance I get but I guess life is just shit like that." He chuckled.
I didnt understand how Jihoon was still managing to stand up this high even after having so much pain with him.
All those times that he's been trying to make me happy, I didnt know he was already broken inside.
I felt unfair for him, for having to cope up with me and I didnt even try to see if he was okay.
I was sorry for him.
But I didnt know how to comfort him.

"Well now you know that, I guess there's no helping it." He sighed.

"why have you never told me about it?" I softly asked.

"Its embarassing to tell someone that I messed up my own life because of something stupid that I did." I laughed.

"You did a mistake and you're up to make it right, how is that embarassing?" He became silent and just shook his head.

"Everyone makes mistake Jihoon. Even if you wouldnt be able to make it right for the two of you atleast make it right for yourself." I adviced to him.

"She's gonna forgive you." I comforted him with a smile:

"What makes you say that?"

"Well she's gonna have to one day. People cant just be stuck at one point in their lives. She would need to forgive you if she wants to really move on." I remarked.

"Besides, if she's still hurt by what you did then that could only mean she still loves you." I finished off.

"How is that possible?" He raised and eyebrow.

"Well, it wouldnt hurt anymore if she really didnt anymore, wouldnt it?"

"Do you really think that?" He sadly smiled.

"Yeah but dont get your hopes up cause I may be wrong but just to cheer you on a little." I chuckled, bringing up the mood.
Which I succeeded in thankfully.

"If you were her, would you forgive me?" He suddenly asked.
I was pretty taken aback from the sudden comparison but I guess he was just really desperate for this.

"Seeing you in this state? No doubt I would" I joked causing him to suddenly sulk.

"No seriously Seoyoon. Would you?" He asked annoyed.

"You admitted to your mistake and puts in effort to really show how sincere you are, ofcourse I would." I chuckled.
He finally puts on a smile on his face which only meant I succeeded in comforting him.

"But im not her" I smirked.

"Whatever." He said, rolling his eyes and finally taking off.

Jihoon's POV

'Well she's gonna have to one day. People cant just be stuck at one point in their lives. She would need to forgive you if she wants to really move on.'

These words came out from the mouth of the person I want to seek forgiveness from.
How is that going for me?
I tried to look at her as if she made me feel better considering how she really put in a lot of effort.
But I couldnt bring myself to feel that way.
I was being comforted by the person who I was talking about the whole time.

'You admitted to your mistake and puts in effort to really show how sincere you are, ofcourse I would.'

Would you really forgive me Seoyoon?
Would you forgive me if you find out what I did to you?
Would you forgive me if you knew you were the one I was engaged with?

I just wish I have the fucking heart to tell her already.
I want her to know that she's the girl I love.
I want her to know she's the one that I put in effort to all the time.
I want her to stop hurting about Jinyoung and just focus on me.
I wanna make things right.
But why am I so scared to tell her the truth?
The whole truth?

This is all my fault.
If only I turned around that night I would've-...
She would've been okay..
I just..
I miss her..so much.

Seoyoon's POV

I couldnt stop worrying about Jihoon even after seeing him all cheered up before he left.
Somehow I still see pain and sadness in his eyes and ofcourse, it wont go away that easily.
I just hope he's okay now.
But if I were to be really honest..
I felt somehow..upset?
I dont know why.
I really dont.
At first I thought its because he didnt tell me anything.
But while he was explaning I realized that it wasnt just that.
Theres a part of me that.. felt disappointed.
I became so curious that I wanted to know what happened and who the girl was.
I wanted to know everything but at the same time my heart was slightly aching and I dont understand why.
I love Jinyoung and I know that for sure.
Why am I feeling this way now?...

****

My eyes fluttered open as the sun shone through the blinds of my windows.
It was a saturday morning and was my day off.
Im gonna meet Hyunjae today as we always do every saturdays.
We both took the same time off since we thought it would be the only time she and I could catch up.

I went down to the living room to finally have breakfast with my family.

"Goodmorning sunshine" my dad greeted and kissed my forehead.

"You seem to be in a good mood" I raised an eyebrown to my dad.

"Well im just thankful for another morning" he smiled as he walked back to the kitchen to get the food he prepared.

"He's been like that all morning" my grandmother annoyedly said.

"I guess he woke up on the right side of the bed" I chuckled back.

"Goodmorning everyone." Guan lin greeted with a smile on his face.
Why is everyone so happy today?

"Weird" I whispered to myself.
I totally ignored the two of them and finally grandpa came to finally start breakfast.
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"I'll see you guys later, Bye!" I waved to everyone before heading outside.
My dad allowed me to borrow his car for today, how cool is that.
Isnt really the first time but I get overly excited whenever.
I drove to Hyunjae's house and picked her up.
And as I reached, I honked the car 3 times indicating that I was outside.

"Hey girl." She greeted and hopped in the car.

"So, usual?" She simply nodded and started buckling her seatbelt.
I took off and drove to the usual restaurant that we go to every saturdays.