2nd Chances // Park Jihoon FF

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I quickly changed my clothes and walked out of the girls changing room to meet Jihoon, who had been waiting for the past 5 minutes. I didnt really want to force him to go with me when I asked him about having any plans tonight, he just somehow insisted to help me get the things that were bothering me, off of my mind. Since I needed it, who am I to even say no?

Lately, I've been really confused with Jinyoung and all of this stress just wouldnt go away. I dont really have much to talk to. Hyunjae had so much more things she needed to worry about and I wouldnt wanna be a burden to her with my confusion towards Jinyoung. Its not like being a burden to Jihoon was something better, I just thought he was someone who could listen well to me.

"Seoyoon" Woojin suddenly called out.

"Oh. Hey Woojin." I greeted with a small smile as I was still bothered with my own thoughts.

"You seem a little troubled" he said concerned.

"Me? No. Im fine. Just a little tired" I lied.

"Well, if you need anyone to talk to, im here." He kindly smiled and walked away at once. Woojin and I haven't been talking much ever since the wedding. Its a shame since he was the guy I got closer to first and now we just casually talk to eachother.

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"So what's bothering you?" Jihoon asked, taking a sip of his Americano that we bought just awhile ago. We decided to have a small walk around the area and go for a small window shopping from time to time. A little bit of food trippin too.

"Jinyoung" I sighed.

"What's up with him?" He asked, slightly annoyed. I sometimes dont understand why he didnt like Jinyoung around much. Considering how they dont really know eachother well.

"He confuses me."

"In what way?"

"Well, he shows me something different in action and words. I dont even know what to believe anymore. Lately, he's been showing the same thing in both ways but he would change from time to time. I really dont get him" I frustatedly ranted to Jihoon, who gave out a soft chuckle.

"There's just one thing I need to tell you. Believe the actions because it-"

"Speaks louder than words" I finished off, recieving a fatherly smile from Jihoon.

"If he's only been telling you words that makes your heart flutter, dont believe it." He adviced.

I felt like I was being stabbed in the chest three time in a row.
Jinyoung has only been sweet with words but never really showed me what he really wanted to portray.
Dont believe it he said.
Jinyoung only makes my heart flutter with his kind words.

"He really doesnt like me huh?" I sighed to myself but kept on a smile.

"Maybe he does, Maybe he doesnt. Who knows?" He replied, slightly uncomfortable with the conversation.

"What do you even like about him anyway?" He asked. I could tell he didnt mean to project that in a harsh way but it still turned out that way.

"Do we need a reason to like someone? If you feel it, its just there, Right?" I replied, causing him to look away from me.

At this point, I couldnt understand why he was acting this way. I just thought he was someone who could listen to things that was troubling me. Why is he suddenly so distant?

"You're right. We dont need reasons to like someone." He smiled to me.

"I guess its in us. A feeling is a feeling, right?" He asked, with a forced smile.

I could already sense that theres something he wanted to say but couldnt put it in words. I couldnt read his expression right now but all I can tell is that he wasnt okay.

"Are you okay?" I concernly asked.

"Im alright. Why'd you ask?" He smiled, fakely.

"You dont look okay. You wanna talk about it?" I offered. I know I was the one who wanted to talk about my troubles but it felt like he was feeling something heavier and I didnt want whatever it is im feeling to be a weight gain on his shoulders.

"Im okay Seoyoon. Its you who I should ask that." He smiled again.

Pain.
Thats what I see.
But why?
Was it something I said?

"You know, you should go and talk to him to finally get your answers. You never know, maybe he really does feel the same he just doesnt know the right way to show it. Maybe he's afraid to tell you how he really see you as because he's afraid of being rejected. At this kind of situation, from what I see, Both of you are just holding back. Unsure of whoever should confess first" he finally spoke.

Maybe I was overthinking. He did sound okay. If something really is troubling him, he wouldnt be able to give such wise words.

"What if he doesnt?" I sadly asked.

"Then he doesnt. We cant always make people like us Seoyoon. No matter how hard we try. No matter how much we want them too. Its hard to accept it thats for sure, it'll take time to heal but eventually, we will get over it" he replied.

His words felt like there's something more to it. It almost feel like he was reffering to himself. To how he actually felt. I knew for a fact taht he wasnt saying this to comfort me, but to express himself.
But I cant point out why.

"Anyway, Jonghyun Hyung texted. We have an emergency meeting. Would it be okay if we save this talk for later? I hate to just leave but I really have to." He said, in a hurry.

"Oh ah. Right sure, its alright ofcourse" I smiled.
Though the truth is, I was feeling disappointed.
I knew he was lying.
I knew that wasnt the real reason.
I dont know the reason as to why he's suddenly like this.
He left without even looking back once.
I didnt even get to ask what was bothering him.
I really wanted to know.
I have no idea why I felt so upset at his attitude.
Not because he left me hanging in here knowing that I had something that I wanted to get off my chest.
But because he didnt get his, off of him.

And I thought he and I were comfortable enough with eachother.