2nd Chances // Park Jihoon FF

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Jihoon's POV

What a great way to start my first day again back here in korea. I ran into the person I didnt expect to see so soon. What even funny is that she was holding hands with the person she mentioned to me before, the guys that stressed her out so much. The guy who hurted her a lot. She still ended up with her. Hilarious right?

Sungwoon Hyung is a liar.

He said I'd forget about her if I left.
He said it would lessen the pain if I left.
Maybe I did forget about her,
Maybe it did lessen the pain.
Temporarily.

Now that im back, seeing her again made my heart ache even more. For 8 months, I allowed her to fully develope to Jinyoung.
Whose the real loser here?
Me.

I was so foolish to believe that i'd feel better if I left and distant myself from her but im even more foolish to come back here knowing that I haven't fully moved on. Now the pain is back and there isnt anyway to stop it all over again.

I walked along the hallway of the hotel without knowing where to head on to. I was suppose to check on the employees, but the real reason is, I wanted to have an excuse to accidentally run into her again. Which eventually I did. But it didnt turn out like how I wanted it to be. I saw her laughing with Jinyoung, exchanging hugs from time to time.

Her smile.
Her most beautiful smile.
I loved seeing her smile. Just like how I love how her eyes shine whenever she laughs. You could see pure happiness that could magically make you happy too.
But I hated the reason to her happiness.

The two of them finally bid eachother goodbye before seperating ways. Seoyoon then, began walking to my direction causing me to hide at the side where she couldnt notice me. Unfortunately, when I walked on the other way, it only made us cross paths even more.

"Hey" I awkwardly smiled.

"Oh hi.." she awkwardly replied. I guess being gone for 8 months sure did changed a lot of things huh?

"How have you been?" I asked, emersed at her endless beauty.

"I've been good. You? How was China?" She weakly smiled to me.

"Lonely. Everyone was here except for me" I awkwardly chuckled and scratch the back of my head. She did the same and bit her lower lip.

"Yeah. You sure did missed out a lot." She remarked.

"Im sorry" I apologized out of the blue.

"For what?" She confusedly asked.

"For leaving without saying goodbye?" I replied, though it sounded a little unsure.

"Oh that? That's no big deal. Its not like we were really friends, right?" She laughed.

"What? We wer-"

"No, I get it. I completely understand. The only reason you treated me well is because Im the complete duplicate of the person that you lost years ago and you just wanted to make up for it for awhile. Then, when the time came when I was the one troubled, you're gone." She retorted, still maintaining the smile on her face.

"No thats not what I-"

"You were the one who could possibly understand me that time. You know I was having a hard time and for once I thought I had a friend who could help me overcome that. I guess I just expected too much from a boss right?" She finished off, still with a smile. A disappointed smile. I was lost for words and was too flustered to even take a step.

I left that big of a mark?

"Seoyoon im-"

"Busy. Im busy. Im sorry sir." She cutted me off once again and finally walked away from me without even glancing once.

I was left dumbfounded at her statements. I didnt know thats how I made her feel. I made her feel like I used her. I never meant to show it that way, she was important to me. She is important to me.
I couldnt face her that time because it hurted me to see her hurting like that, it also hurted me to know that theres someone else that she loved. I let selfishness come to me and didnt even stand by her when she needed me.

How can I be so fucking stupid to lose the one chance I could to get her back? That could have been my chance. If maybe I endured my pain a little more..I could've gotten her back.

Fuck. Im so fucking stupid.
She doesnt deserve this..
I ended up hurting her when all I ever wanted the best for her.

I felt all the weight of the world on my shoulders and all I wanted to do was drown myself is despair knowing that I hurted Seoyoon for the second time. The disappointment on her face reminded me of the day I left her. The day that she got into an accident because of me. It all happened again only for a different reason.

Seoyoon's POV

How dare he come up to me pretending like nothing had happened? Yes im that upset because he promised me one thing, and that's to be with me when I needed comfort. A promise is a promise. And if it get broken, its not easy to just go back to trusting the person again. It takes effort and so much sincereity to earn it back. He doesnt show any of that. Simply because I was just a person who looked like his Seoyoon.
He used me for his own desire.
His desire to make it up to his dead ex-girlfriend.

Maybe I was being too harsh.
But I despised people who breaks promises.
To be honest, I dont know why I do. No one has ever broken a promise to me. Jihoon was the very first one. But I didnt understand why im so sensitive when it comes to breaking promises.

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"Jinyoung" I called out with a tired. He slowly approached me with the same look as he did yesterday.

"Tired?" I asked.

"Mhm" he bluntly answered.

"Whats wrong?" I asked, exhausted.

"Its nothing, I'll see you later babe." He simply said and kissed my forehead and walked out at once.

What is wrong now?
What did I do wrong again?