2nd Chances // Park Jihoon FF

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Seoyoon's POV

A month later.

"Seoyoon, there's someone at the door looking for you." My mom informed, walking in to my room.

"Girl or boy?" I asked.

"Boy." She smiled.

"Name?" I asked again.

"I didn't get to catch it. Just get down in there." She chuckled and pulled me off of my bed.
I lightly groaned and lazily stood up from my bed before heading downstairs to confront this unknown person.

"Can I help-"

"Dr.hwang..?" I called out pretty surprised to see him after a while.
That's weird.
Mom knew who he was, why did she say she didn't?

"Hey..how are you?" He smiled.

"Im..fine." I uncomfortably replied.

"May I..come in?" He embarassedly asked.
I slightly nodded and stood aside, allowing him to fully enter the house.
I lead him into the living room and invited him to sit down and sat uncomfortably and a few inches away from him.

"Its been a while, dont you think?" He initiated the conversation.

"What are you doing here?" I asked, I didnt want it to come out as cold but somehow it did and it didnt sound good.

"I wanted to talk to you." He seriously said.

"I want to clear everything to you."
Just as I thought everything was over.
Its been over a month since I last saw anyone and I was already starting to get over it.
The pain had somehow lessened but I didn't think they would come back and try to break me again.
I didnt want to talk about it anymore, I wanted him out of my house.

"You don't have to. Im okay now." I kindly smiled to him.

"No I-"

"Look I'm really, really starting to be okay after a month of being miserable. With you showing up here and try to bring back something I was already getting rid off, I really don't wanna go back there." I immediately cut him off.
I didn't wanna hear anymore of what happened.
I was okay now.
I stopped crying.
I was learning to live again.
If he came just to make me confused again, I rather just tell him to get out.
Im really tired of this.
No more.

"Seoyoon if you would just-"

"Please." I coldly sighed.

"Get out." I continued, clenching my teeth and fist.

"It was our fault." He spoke up.

"It was all our fault. We made him leave you." He continued to talk.

"Please Seoyoon. None of this is his fault." He said as he started walking closer to me.

"All he ever did was love you. He got lied to for 2 years. Thinking the person he loved was dead. He got hurt just like you did. Im not tolerating what he did after finding out your death was a lie, but I understand that he just really missed you and couldn't risk losing you for the second time."

"He loves you more than anything in this world but because of our feelings for you we made him choose between our future and you." He continued.

"Believe me, it was a hard decision for him-"

"But he chose you, right? He chose your dreams with him."

"You were his dream."

"That's bullshit, he wouldn't have left me hanging if so." I yelled out.
No.
Im not going to cry.
I no longer wanted to waste my tears on a stupid lie.
They're just trying to get me to fall into their trap once again.
They're just going to play with me like how they always do.

"His father was dying.." he loudly sighed.

"His father's wish was to make him successful. But because of our conflict, it was making it hard for us three to make that happen." He explained.

"We told his father that we didn't want to do anything with him if he pushed through with your marriage."

"If only Jihoon's dad wasn't dying..without a doubt he would've chosen you."

Please..
I don't want to be confused anymore.
I don't want to believe him.
Im so sick of believing him and then get lied to.
I want to be free from this goddamn pain.
But everytime im on the verge of forgetting everything, bam!
Minhyun shows up and ruined everything for me, again!

When will this stop?

"I can't make this up. This is nothing but the truth. The whole truth."

"Jihoon was lied to just like you did, he was betrayed by the people he trusted and chose to stand by with just like you did. and just like you, Don't you think he deserves a second chance?"

"Get out." I stubbornly said.

"Seoyoon-"

"Get out!" I yelled out as I pushed him away.
He gave me a desperate look before walking away with a heavy heart.
Just as he shut the door behind him,
I broke down.
I cried and cried like how I always do.
I grabbed the closest pillow and buried my face in it to prevent making any noise.
I didn't want my mother to know that I was crying again.
She didn't deserve to see me in so much pain and neither do I.
I don't deserve this.
I deserve to be happy.

"Seoyoon." I heared my mother's voice call out.

"Come here." She sadly smiled and pulled me into her arms.
A mother's touch is always the best comfort.
The one that I always need to calm myself down.

"How many more lies do I have to listen to mom?" I cried out.

"Do you really think that way baby?" My mom asked.
My tears were soon interrupted by my mom's sudden question.
I lightly pulled away from her and gave a her a confused look.

"For what I see honey, you're not crying because you're being lied to yet again." She smiled, lifting my face up.

"You're crying because you know its the truth. But you insist on thinking its a lie to prevent getting hurt."

"But honey, lying to yourself will not let go of the pain. Accepting the truth will. And believe it or not, truth hurts more but it will help you lift the weight off your shoulders." She said as she placed a hand on my cheeks and wiped my tears away with her thumbs.

"You don't have to keep running away from what's hurting you baby. You need to face it, no matter how painful it is."

"I..I still love him..mom." I cried, as I buried my face in her hands.

"I know you do baby, I know." She said and rested my head on her shoulders.

"So then, go to him. Listen to him. And tell him how you really feel." She advised.

"I can't mom. I can't do it." I was discouraged.

"Ofcourse you can. I know you can."

She was right.
I knew she was right.
I hated myself for actually believing what Minhyun was saying.
He was telling the truth.
But it's me who couldn't get myself to accept it.
Im the problem.
Im the stubborn one.

"Talk to him baby. Its time you let go of everything." My mom finally stood up from her seat and started preparing our lunch.
I took a couple of minutes to think about what my mother had said.

Let go..
I want to let go too..
And if this is the only way to let go..

I grabbed my phone and dialed the person I recently just kicked out.

"Can I..see you?"