"Nat no" I warn pointing my finger at her. "Cmon it'll be fun!" She defends I shake my head and relax on to the couch. "You don't want to go to freaking Ariana Grande's party?" Jess shrieks. "Guys please. I don't want to go to any parties let alone without one of the guys" I admit sheepishly. "You still don't feel safe do you?" Jess croaks out. "In all honesty, I've been having nightmares about him for the past month. It scares the shit out of me. I don't know if someone would bail him out but it scares me" I manage to respond biting back tears. Jess and Nat wrap their arms around me tightly. "You'll be okay" they whisper.
"What's up guys?! It's Kayla!!! And I'm joined here today with my two besties Nat and Jess!" I exclaim to my camera. Nat and Jess pop up from the couch and jump next to me. "I had you guys tweet us using the hashtag AskTheIdiots!" I laugh. "Where do you guys first meet?" Nat reads. "I met Kayla after she became my roomie at the rehab center" Nat answers smiling. "And I met these two 2 months after Kayla moved in because I became their roommate" Jess laughs. We continue answer questions until Jess decides she's wants to go wander LA. "Alright guys hope you liked this video. If you want to see more of us make sure you hit the little subscribe video because I'm back to my weekly videos!!" I announce at the end before all of us put our hands in front of the camera.
"So you sure you're okay?" Jess asks me. "Yes" I reply shortly. "We just don't want you to feel like you can't be safe that's all" Nat defends smacking the back of my head. I roll my eyes and get in the passenger seat while Nat gets in the drivers and Jess sits in the back. "We should go visit Aiden" Nat jokes. "You guys want to?" I question. The nod and I text Aiden.
Me: hey can the girls and I come over?
ThatGuyAiden: um sure
Me: you okay?
ThatGuyAiden: see you when you get here
Me: um okay I love you aid
I felt upset after he didn't respond to my last message. "We going?" Nat asks and I nod looking out the window.
"Ah the Aussie! Dan exclaims hugging me. "Nice to see you again" I laugh. "Who are these two beautiful ladies?" Deb asks nodding towards Nat an Jess. "My two amazing friends Nat and Jess" I answer smiling. "Alright well Aiden is in his room!" Deb announces. I nod and make my way to the room that says 'Aiden'. I push open the door and almost freak out. I step in and close the door.
"Aiden stop" I demand. He looks up at me tears flooding his eyes. "Babe please put down the razor" I cry getting closer to him. "Aiden look at me" I instruct. He does what I say and my heart breaks in millions of pieces. "You are better than this. Don't do this Aiden. I love you. I need you. We all need you. We all love you. Please just put the razor down and talk to me" I manage to choke out. He relaxes and hands me the razor. Memories begin flooding in my head. I quickly toss it in to the waste bin and sit next to Aiden. "My parents are losing their house and it's all my fault" he croaks out. "How is it your fault?" I ask my heart breaking even more. "If I hadn't have gone to that special rehab place they wouldn't be in debt! They'd be able to pay their freaking bills but guess what? They can't because of me! Because I'm a worthless waste of space who doesn't deserve the life that I have" Aiden exclaims but not loudly. "It isn't your fault Aiden. None of this is. We all go through phases where we feel like Everything's our fault but in reality it's not. Your parents wanted you to go to that place. That's why they spent their money on it. They wanted you to get better Aiden. And you have gotten better. Please stay strong. For them. For me. For us" I cry softly. He wraps his protective arms around me and cries. "I'm so sorry" he chokes out looking me in the eyes. "I was being so selfish. Kayla I don't deserve you at all" he whispers. "You're wrong. We deserve each other. We bring out each other's happiness and that's all that matters" I whisper. He smiles and I know it's a real one. "I love you so damn much" he whispers. "I love you more" I reply kissing him.
"It was nice hanging out with you guys" I state giving Deb and Dan hugs. "Nice to spend some quality time with you Aussie" Dan laughs. "Come back soon" Deb smiles as Aiden, Jess, Nat and I leave. "I'm riding with Aiden" I say when we get to the cars. "Yeah you are" Jess smirks and I smack her on the back of the head. "Cmon babe" Aiden whines pulling me towards his car.
"Kayla!" The JanoBoys shriek when I get home. "Heyyy" I exclaim smiling. I then hug them all individually. My stomach begins to churn and I excuse myself. I run to the bathroom and sit on the floor. Why? I sit there and cry for who knows how long. Someone knocks on the door so I make myself look better than I did and I carefully open the door. "Are you okay?" Jai asks quietly. "Yeah" I lie. "Okay well everyone's getting ready to watch a movie so c'mon" Jai states. I nod and follow him down to the living room. I plop down next to Aiden and smile.
AUTHORS NOTE: forty freaking chapters. Holy Mahone. I love you guys sooooo much. Thanks for all the votes and comments. Keep Doing what your doing xx
