Devoted S.M

•Fifty-two•

Eloise
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10:02am
20th September 2019

It had been two days since I had last seen Shawn and we hadn't spoken to eachother since. I was waiting for him to come talk to me first. I didn't want to intrude on him. I just wanted to give him the time and space he needs.
Even though I miss him like crazy, I knew that it was best for me to just stay away for a few more days.

For now I was sat on my own in the living room devouring my way through a pot of Ben and Jerry's. I had friends playing on the tv as some white noise to fill the time.

Laying on my back I only stared at my bump infront of me as my tight vest wrapped over the top of it.

Even though my bump wasn't that big, it was obvious to anyone that I was pregnant.

After eating halve the tub of icecream I reached over to the coffee table before placing it down. I then grabbed one of the couch pillows before putting it behind my back so I was more comfortable.

Looking back down at my belly I pulled my vest up before placing my hands on the top of my bump. I couldn't help but smile softly at the thought of knowing that I had a little human growing inside of me.

"Only three more weeks until I get to find out whether you're a boy or girl" I whispered, gently soothing my hands over the top of my bump.

After a few more minutes of admiring my bump I heard a knock at the door. Sitting up I pulled my vest back over my bump before getting up and making my way towards the front door.

Once reaching the door I pulled it open to unexpectedly reveal Shawn. He was stood there with his hands in his pockets as he looked at me. I couldn't help but notice how red his eyes were and the dark bags that hung under them.

"I came to pick up the rest of my stuff" Shawn mumbled, awkwardly looking down at his feet.

"Oh, yeah, sure" I sadly replied, not really wanting to hear that.

I opened the door further for him to come in before closing it behind him.

"I got bored and boxed up the last of your things, you just need to duck tape the top of them closed" I explained, turning around to see Shawn already staring down at me, his eyes particularly focusing on one area of me.

"Shawn?" I furrowed my eyebrows at him.

"Is that a bump?" Shawn asked as he pointed down at my stomach.

"Err- yeah" I stuttered before laughing  lightly at his reaction.

"Mmm" Shawn hummed before looking away and sluggishly walking his way up the stairs.

Furrowing my eyebrows my face fell into confusion at his response. It honestly hurt for him to just reply like that, to reply like he didn't care or as if he wasn't interested.

I just let out a loud sigh before going into the kitchen and grabbing myself a glass of cold water.

I then hoisted myself up onto one of the bar stools before taking a sip of my drink. Grabbing my phone from where I had left it, infront of me, I unlocked it before going onto Instagram to see if there was anything worth of interest.

About another ten minutes later I heard heavy footsteps coming down the stairs. Peering out the kitchen doorway Shawn was walking down holding a stack of boxes.

"Do you want help to the car?" I asked.

"No, it's okay, you're pregnant anyway" Shawn replied as reached the floor.

"I can still open the boot for you" I sighed, not liking how off Shawn was being with me.

I didn't feel like I could call him out on how he was acting with me though, after all I did deserve it.

"Sure" Shawn mumbled before waiting for me to open the front door.

Getting down off the chair I walked to the front door before pulling it open for Shawn to go outside first. He mumbled a thanks before I then followed him out.

Once we reached his car I went to open the boot but the car wasn't unlocked.

"Do you have the keys?" I asked, turning to look at Shawn.

"Front pocket" Shawn replied, no want in his voice to talk to me.

Seeing as he couldn't reach for them himself I awkwardly reached into the front pocket of his sweats before taking out his car keys.

Once unlocking the car I opened the boot and Shawn placed all the boxes inside.

"I'll pop round tomorrow to grab my joggers" Shawn said as he reached up and closed the boot.

"I can just drop them round when they're dry if you want"  I offered as Shawn walked round to the driver's side of the car and opened the door.

"No, it's fine. I don't wanna trouble you" Shawn said, finally giving me some sort of peace with his words.

"It's just a pair of joggers Shawn" I replied.

"And that's why I'll come get them" Shawn responded before hopping into into his car, shutting the door and rolling his window down.

"Okay" I sighed before walking back onto my front garden, our conversation drifting short.

"Hey, Elle!" Shawn called out for me as I gradually made my way towards the house.

"Yeah?" I replied, stopping to turn around.

"Do you have anymore of those scans?" Shawn said, hesitant to ask.

"Ofcourse" I couldn't help but feel a small smile tug at my lips.

"Can I have one please?" Shawn asked.

"Yeah, let me just go grab you one quick" I replied before going into the house a grabbing a couple extra scans I had got printed off.

Getting back outside I walked over to Shawn before handing him two scans.

"I thought you could give the second one to your mum" I softly smiled as Shawn took them into his large hands.

"I haven't told her yet" Shawn sighed as stared down at the scan.

"Oh" I simply replied, having thought Shawn would have rushed to tell her like he does with everything.

"But I'm sure that when I do, she'll appreciate it" Shawn explained, holding the scan up slightly so he could see it better.

"Okay, well just let me know how she takes it" I gave him a tight smile, trying my best to act like I was fine.

While I was trying to hide how I was feeling, Shawn was making no effort to. He was making it plain clear and obvious that he was very much still hurting. I mean, when he got here his eyes were so red as if he'd been crying.

Shawn just nodded before biting down on his bottom lip and looking away.

"I'll see you later" Shawn mumbled once clearing his throat.

"Bye Shawn" I hummed before turning around and going back into the house.

The two of us living apart is going to be way more hard then I thought it would be.

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