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34.

"Good future requires sacrifice from the both of you."

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Lumipas ang mga araw, linggo at buwan. It was a tough road, ang ipaliwanag kay Cris na nagseselos si Theo sa kanya at nakagawa kami ng kasalanan. He said it was a mistake because we were both drunk and yes, it was a mistake but it was also a sin.

Kasi may boyfriend ako, kahit gaano ako kalasing ay bawal pa rin akong humalik ng hindi ko naman boyfriend. I pleaded Cris to just abide, ok, kamukha ko 'yung ex niya pero 'yun lang 'yun. I have a different life na pwedeng masira kung ipu-push niya pa rin ang sarili niya sa'kin.

I love my job. I have already invested a lot, thus, I cannot just quit.

Pumayag na rin siya and I am thankful. I owe him that, I owe him not talking to me.

I just want to better my relationship with Theo. We've been through very bad times and it almost wrecks us but we want to be more than that. Because if you really love the person, you have to stay still at the end.

Bumangon ako mula sa kama ni Theo at nginitian siya habang inilalapag ang mga pagkaing niluto niya.

He kissed me on the forehead. "Good morning, beautiful."

"Ahuh, good morning, I'm hungry."

"You have sausage and eggs and bread and some fruits here."

"Plus black coffee," turo ko sabay abot sa isang tasa ng kape.

We decided to take day offs and spend it with each other. Sinabi niyang may importante siyang sasabihin. For a moment, I am  nervous.

He seemed nervous and serious. And I don't want this kind of moments. Ayoko 'yung may dapat kaming pag usapan sa gitna ng kasiyahan. It's threatening.

I stared at him as he plays with my fingers.

"Okay? You want it?"

"I'm asking you," tugon niya.

"I'm asking you, too," seryoso kong wika. "Because more than asking for my opinion about us, this is your life we are talking about, Theo."

"I don't want to leave you, love."

I smiled. "I know, I know. I also don't want you to leave pero that is a very beautiful opportunity. You have to grab that, that's not ordinary."

Yes, Canada is a far place. Maybe it would be tougher for us, but his boss gave him this opportunity because he sees his capability. Talented naman talaga si Theo and I would not stop him from being high and building a great future. We only live once. I want the best for him. I will support him in reaching his dreams at all cost.

When you love a person, distance should be less of an issue. Siguro, oo, mahirap. Siguro, mas maraming luha ang papatak at maraming pagtatalo ang bibitawan.

Siguro  mas masakit at mas nakakasira ng bait. Siguro mas mawawalan kami ng oras para kausapin ang isa't isa.

Pero siguro, kaya namin. Hindi na ako 18, hindi na siya 19. In short, hindi na kami mga teenagers. We are adults. Hindi na pwedeng mamatay kami kapag hindi magkikita.

Hindi na pwedeng mababaw ang mga luha namin. Hindi na pwedeng sa amin na lang iikot ang mga mundo namin.

We have to be more than our relationships.

We need more growth... to be better.

I hugged him tight. Yes, I am crying. But, of course I still would not stop him. I would not plead him to stay. Kaya namin ang long distance relationship.

"Love, let's stay strong, okay?" Theo murmurs.

I nodded. I kissed him. "I love you," I sincerely said as I stare straight at his eyes. "Aloha, I love you always."

"I love you always and forever. Walang bibitiw, aloha."

I nodded. It was a fine good bye, masakit pero mabuti. He would fly high, make goals, reach his dreams, and be the best version of himself.

Dito lang ako sa Pilipinas. Kakayod rin, magiging mabuti, magsisipag, tutuparin lahat ng pangarap.

We would both fly high.

Para sa future.