This Ends Here (✓)

mysbreanna's note

sigh...

sigh.

hey, sup! how are you???

thanks for reaching this end, it means a LOT to me seriously. before actually knowing how the story would flow, i already know the ending. so basically, i made the story for the ending itself. as i said in the intro, maybe life is less complex if we know our end roads so i came to an idea that if we could see the future through looking at the eyes of someone, life would be simple.

we could immediately say no if we know that the future relationship we are gonna be creating would fail. that easy.

i don't know Kate's feelings towards Theo — did she just lost her love for him because of so much problems? or she just loved the idea of a relationship and there's Theo? or she was attracted to his broken side and she assumed that wanting to fix him was love? or what? i don't have any idea and it means while i was writing it, i feel Kate's shifting of emotions and getting confused as time was passing by.

i knew how it would end and i knew how it would really be painful for the both of them. Kate's confusion would make her sadder while Theo would be more depressed because he made Kate his life. the break was nobody's mistake, it's just a conflict in the mind and the emotions.

i think, bravery is also choosing not to fight when you know the end beforehand.

this is a fast paced story like ×100, one chapter is this year and then the next one is three years after lmao. i want the readers to see the point of being in a relationship for long years but the probability of breaking up is still 10/10. we can really not tell. maybe you love someone today, but is that a fact? where are you getting that?

because you've been with Kate during her teenage life and then she met a broken boy... she has wanted to fix him... she experienced all our basis of love in our teenage years... she saw her future with Theo... she tried to do her best to stay in the relationship, clinging unto their promises and belief of love... but one day came, and she doesn't know anymore.

this is a story of how we really do not know the future. it is complex... it could be sad and tragic.

i made this for just weeks but i don't think i'll be able to move on that fast because i created them with my own what ifs... with my own fears of committing, trusting and looking forward in the future.

i love the character of Theo SO much but i think i am in the character of Kate, and idk. emotions just fuck us well. trust me, you may not have cried while reading but i was on constant breakdowns while writing this (well, i'm like that in all my stories so) sigh.

anyways, again :-))) thank you for reading! i hope you learned lesson (lessons would be bonus) and this story touched your heart, even for a bit lol.

thank you very much.

this is a story of fiction but hell, it hurts. as for me, ok.

ugh :--(

aloha! ('yung lahat ng pwedeng maging ibig sabihin ng aloha pero hindi mahal kita ) hahahahaha i'm so much lonely that it makes me scared of love.

oy, jk (half)

xoxo,
mysbreanna 🌻

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