guardian angel

Dreams

A year ago today I was wondering why X wouldn't visit me in my dream

A month or so later, he did

I remember it so clearly

He was in a black car, his head on the steering wheel, it was dark outside, two people with flashlights were by his car, just looking at him, I then see blood appear on the windscreen

"catch the-"

That's all I seen bc then I woke up, when I woke up I heard like a bell (like when you open a store door, yk when X walked in to the store there was a bell..)

Then the first thing I thought was "catch the murderer" I couldn't go back to sleep, it was on my mind all day, I even looked up books about spirits and what does it mean when they visit you

Then a while after, I had another dream about him

Do you know on that IG video, he got black and blonde dreads and he's wearing a white hoodie with (I think) revenge on it in black writing and he got his hood over his head and he then freestyles?

Anyway I seen him like that and he said to me (it was over a screen) he said revenge isn't the answer that's all he said but it even hit me deep in my dream, like years I've been thinking of revenge on a pedo, Ive messaged his gf, everyone, just trying to let them know but nobody believes me bc well they're his friend.. Knowing damn well his age and what he did, knowing my age, they still think I'm in the wrong when they clearly know everything! A few of them even name called me (A YOUNG GIRL BTW) and a few even used it against me! They know everything bc a pedo fucking bragged about it all, how fucked up..

So X knows and he told me revenge isn't the answer

bc just constantly thinking of it is not gonna do you any good is it?

After a while he stopped visiting me bc I did dumb things.. I said sorry but I did something else dumb, then whenever I thought of doing dumb things, I sometimes had a dream about him like how he was in the car.. :/ it was before I even seen the pictures properly..

It's like he was telling me "don't do dumb shit to yourself, look what happened to me, you need to make it past 20" :'( <\3 I love you X <3