guardian angel

Dream

I woke up feeling weird.. Like emotional, like ima bout to cry but no tears will come out bc its also like a numb feeling.. I can't explain it.. Like I don't really wanna be here, like everyday is the same :/

Most of the time, I wake up early and I feel like this but when I wake up late ish I don't feel this way, it's really odd and worrying..

My dream is also stuck in my head, I was reading this like news paper about E.T but it was like some witch thing, this news paper thing helped me see X.. It was a odd dream yet nice <3 ohmygod I just thought.. The thing I was reading was about E.T, an alien! X didn't think he was human! "we're not human, we're both aliens" Billie Eilish said X said to her, what do y'all think this means??!

"it's easier to live when you have a goal to meet" X's inspirational qoutes helps me <3

This one qoute on IG, Idk if he actually said it but it said "talk less, do more, if you can't live by that you're a weak excuse of a human" something like that and It kinda hurt me but then I was like wtf why am I hurt? like if you're gonna better yourself do it, don't say it but then end up not doing it etc or maybe if you keep saying you're gonna do this and that but don't, that's how I took it, that's why i felt attacked lol but then I realized I can't really do this and that bc I need the money but I can do some of what I already can do to try to get famous like..