guardian angel

my ? deluxe anniversary album is here

my ? deluxe anniversary album is here <3 what a nice thing to wake up to, there's a lil book inside and a bitch cried "music saved me as an individual bc i was literally haunted by myself, as a person i was lost.. (i thought of train food..) it gave me a purpose within that purpose i became able to display my pain for others initially it just felt good, after a while i wanted to be like a therapist for these kids, anyone that was even slightly depressed could feel it, i was doing this for them as much as i was for myself, i gave them something" <3 whoever thinks he's not a beautiful person are dumb asf fr, in my view that's all i've ever seen him as, not the villain, a hero, i see nothing but good in him, i know he made mistakes but who haven't? he was becoming the best him he could for himself and the kids and i fucking love him man <3 he went through so much fucked up shit and in the end all he wanted was love and for people to not give him hate, he just wanted people to listen to his story, he wanted to be accepted, he accepts us all bc he knows how it feels for people to judge, hate and let you down, there's something else in this book about the artist and the person, he pretty much let us know him for him, he wanted us to know the real him, i think we knew him as a person very well tbh, that's also why his songs are so deep, he put his thoughts, pain into them bc he wanted us to know him for real, he also speaks for those for haven't got a voice, that feel powerless etc and i am so thankful that and for him as a person <3 i felt like i was in the wrong, i felt dirty, i didn't know what to think of it all.. i was young.. (i was 12, i thought "oh they're all doing it" as kids think, i was nervous, felt like i couldn't say no, the words couldn't come out..) but listening to alone part 2 and many others, he kinda spoke for me.. he told how i feel, the words i couldn't say, he let me know it's okay to come out about it all, it also may help others like he helps me, knowing i can relate to him comforts me, he's real, lovely, caring, loving, fr <3 he's like my therapist.. <3

"X knew he wouldn't be here in the physical world sense long, a dive into the music showed us that, he was gasping for air as he drowned in the demons, depression and darkness that bound him, we've all been there, some of us slipping deeper than others and many of us not making it out at all, the deepair and uncertainty that pushes us, locks us or traps us, the feat of crippling anxiety, the isolation that comes in our lonely hours, X poured himself into music that spoke to our deepest pains and insecurities, he gave voice to those who otherwise felt powerless or helpless in a world that feels especially cruel to those who don't quite fit in"


thankyou for everything <3 i love you X <3 #LLJ