everything X says is facts, nothing but true words, it will make us happy and positive if we train our mind (like he said and kept reminding himself that himself and us are in control of our mind) and wake up with a purpose, also like he said before "it's easier to live when you have a goal to meet" <3 like.. me just writing my stories helps, It's getting some of my thoughts and feelings out but putting it in a story and making the best damn story or making it into a song and making the best damn song, I also get lost in my stories so I'm like "huh what thoughts again?" lol, it makes me happy ish, it's the same when I write lyrics and rap (like I wanna rap for a living, so waking up to write my lyrics or a story is a good start) I cry a lil bc of how good I sound, I get exactly what X means and I am trying to be positive, oh yeah btw I created a positive notepad on my phone :) whenever I feel a lil bit sad etc, like I've been going to my nans and the twice we've been there I just felt like full on crying randomly.. I then write it down but I always think of something positive like, so I put and see it in a positive way afterwards and that there is some good in life, like my dog for instance <3 I'm always negative and anxious about letting my dog off the lead in case somebody Knocks my nans door but then I let him off and things are okay, it's hard to explain.. Might be bc I'm tired Idk but yeah I am trying
"im gonna go to sleep happy and I'm gonna wake up happy" <3
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guardian angel
FanficX aka Jahseh is watching over us always, he's our guardian angel/lil demon now. i'm writing this because it's like a special story for his birthday <3 may be upsetting
