guardian angel

My wrongs

I feel so horrible about everything, it's not your guys fault I am the way I am, I know I've seen a lot of shit so have jake and it affects people differently but I can't blame anybody but myself, like I haven't been flipping out lately, I've handled things a lil bit better I'm trying to be the best me I can so I can do it so there was no excuse for how I have reacted in the past, it is not your fault, I wouldn't have realized my wrongs and want to be better, no actually try to be better if it wasn't for X, he's made me realize a lot of stuff and have helped me open up about a lot of things too, all the years I've said sorry etc but continued to do the messed up shit until now, I was meant to find out about X at some point <3

I have to accept and forgive myself for the things I've done in the past, some are unforgettable but all I can do is try, all I can do is be better and I'm doing that, I just need to change how my mind works and I'll be a lot happier, I've been writing down my thoughts a lot more on my notepad on my phone and it helps, there is hope for the rest of us <3

I'm sorry mum and dad and thankyou X